Posted in Poetry, Random Thoughts

The Shine

Daily writing prompt
Do you think weโ€™re shaped more by our experiences or by who we are?

I was a leaf;

A new one;

Soft and small;

Nobody, I believed, could

Take away my shine.

.

The Draught did it though.

I tried hard to fight back;

Clinging to the Tree

As it tried to shake me off;

Fighting to nurture myself;

Trying to the keep the shine.

.

I survived.

When it rained finally,

I was still clinging to the Tree;

Still somewhat green.

I couldn’t wait for the shine to return.

.

It didn’t.

.

But I was

Harder, thicker, sturdier;

I survived.

In the end,

It is all that matters.

Posted in Poetry

Tishnagi | Urdu Poetry

Is tishnagi ka haal kya kahiye, mere humdum;

Me hi dariya hu, fir bhi me hi sehera hu…


Translation:

What’s to be said

of my unquenchable thirst,

my Love;

For I am the river,

Yet I am my own desert.


Author’s note: Tishnagi stands for intense thirst, often extending to emotional or spiritual yearning.

Posted in Random Thoughts

Being a Father

Love of a father is special.

It doesn’t come naturally

from bringing a life into this world

from one’s own body.

It comes from the realisation

that this smelly little critter is

his to protect and nurture;

his to discipline;

his to work hard and earn for;

his to offer piggyback rides on muddy days;

his to carry on shoulders during parades and carnivals;

his to tickle for rewarding giggles…

Father’s love is a testimony of

human capacity to feel…

and love…

without reason.


Author’s note: Dedicated to Papa, Wasil and Bhaiya

Father’s love is usually quiet. He is just not raised to say it out loud. As a proof, watch this scene from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory where Willy Wonka meets his dentist father after many years of leaving house as a child: Video Link

Posted in Poetry

Be-asar | Urdu Poetry

Koshisho me kasar na thi, faqat yaqeen be-asar tha;

Me tinke beenane gaya, wo ghonsla chhod kar gaya.

Translation

It was never for the want

Of effort–just trust;

I just left to gather straws;

He left the nest.

Posted in Poetry

Maikash I Urdu | Poetry

Andhero me doobi thi jinki shaame,

Surkh seher ka intezar karte hain;

Samandar ne pyasa chhoda jin maikash ko,

Teri ek nazar ka intezar karte hain.

.

Saaki koste h husn wale ko,

Baadakash ishare pe jaam chhodte hain,

Dilbar, khol de ye darwaze,

Teri dahleez pe sare aam dum todte hain.

.

Teri inayat deewane par ho jaye;

Ek pal deedar mayassar ho jaye;

Mar k hi uthega gar ye naqab,

Hum kehte h muqarrar ho jaye.


Translation

Those who lived in the darkest night

Await dawn’s first light,

Thirst that a sea could not drown

Awaits your eyes to alight.

.

Cup bearers hate your lure;

On your cue, the drunk left his cup behind,

Love, open your door;

Dying at your doorway for the world to deride.

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A favour he begs, besotted as is he,

To see you just a moment for;

If only death can take off your veil;

Ready to die forever more.


Context:

Hidden behind veil, muslim women have long inspired Urdu Poetry–lover’s first sight being worth more than one’s life.

Overtly, Urdu poets consider Allah as the most beautiful love, hidden behind the veil that will be lifted only after death, making death not an ending but a beginning of forever instead.

Posted in Poetry

Parda | Urdu | Poetry

Parda hilne ki aahat se jhoomte hain,

Uske wujood se behtar koi nasha nahi.

Translation:

Drunk at the sound of curtains stirring,

No wine tastes better than the hope you exist.


Context: Urdu poetry stems from a culture where shyness is the greatest virtue of a woman. Here stirring curtains stand for a shy beloved hiding just out of sight.

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Nazar | Urdu | Poetry

Mere mehboob ki nazaro se bach ke rehna,

Wo janta hai dil kaha chhupa rakha hai.

Uski palko ke uthne aur girne ke beech;

Deewano ne afsana bana rakha hai.

Translation:

Beware of the eyes

of my beloved who

will find your heart

no matter where it hides.

Tales of love are told

mid the moment

she gazes at you

till she drops her eyes.

Context:

Urdu poetry developed in a culture where women did not speak to unrelated men at all. Poets have filled countless pages describing the language of eyes that existed between lovers; how just raising gaze to look at one could incite a love story told and retold around the fire.

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Nadaan | Urdu poetry

Naadan sanam ki masoomiyat se haar jate hain.

Salaam kar ke milte hain, seena chaak kar ke jate hain.


Translated into a Lantern poetry

Naive

Stony heart;

Blessed my life;

And left, ripping me

apart!


Context: This piece points out the irony of “Salam” as greeting between parting lovers (a blessing for a long life).

Posted in Fiction, Science Fiction

7D

Author’s note: This story is part of my upcoming book: 7D: Tales from the Future. You can download my other books for free from here: Books by Shaily

The sun is warm on my skin and the air smells of pine and heather. Yumeโ€™s dark eyes gaze into mine mesmerizing me as he guides me by the elbow and urges me to touch the blue bird sitting next to the gurgling spring. Her glowing blue feathers call to me. There is a song in the wind with no wordsโ€”only the music of the bubbling spring, singing birds and chirping grasshoppers. The dream like scene holds me still.

Yume is still touching my elbow; still looking at me with those dark eyes. I shiver as butterflies take flight in my belly. Half afraid that the blue bird would fly away shattering the magic of the moment, I touch her wings. She quivers but does not leave me. Her feathers under my fingers are buttery soft. Her two yellow friends sit alongside her unaffected by my intrusion. One of them is drinking water from the spring; the other one is singing in a voice that would remain with me forever.

With his perfect pointed nose, Yume resembles the birds: calm and serene. For a moment, I wonder if his team has used him as the model for these birds. The dark expressive eyes are certainly his. I am better off not knowing though if I want to keep reliving this otherworldly experience. I know it is just an illusionโ€”a seven dimensional (7D) piece of visual art that allows me to see in three dimensions as well as hear, smell, taste and touchโ€”but stillโ€ฆ

It is a product of responsive technology powered by Artificial Intelligence, which means that when I interact with any element, it responds intelligently. My act of breathing is met with the smell of pine forest; the blue bird quivers upon my touch; and the water splashes against my hand, tongue and throatโ€”wet without actual waterโ€”as I drink from the spring.

The best part is that there is no need for special glasses or equipment to run itโ€”just a touch-powered, self-fitting ring with a button that Seiko is wearing on his little finger. Once you wear it and switch the button on, it activates adding certain elements to your surroundings, creating the illusion. This piece is an immersive one that has turned my entire room into my personal heaven.

Yume smiles at me knowingly. I will owe him forever for this moment.

Seiko touches one of the two rings on his finger. The scene pixilates and melts in the air bringing my office into view, and I sigh as I return to reality. Seiko is amused, โ€œEngages all senses, doesnโ€™t it?โ€

I nod wordlessly. Before I had experienced it, I was a little unsure of the sellability of the technologyโ€”it will be extremely expensive in the initial years due to the research and development cost, close to a vacation on a space station. So, I had wondered if people would be interested in buying it when they can have the same experience by traveling.
But now, I am converted. I would never have been able to touch a live bird in a natural setting.

And then, there is Yume still touching my elbow, which makes it difficult to think clearly. He has a way of making my legs jelly. Honestly, I would never approve of such a crazy fascination. I have never been so taken by any other man. Once a talk show host had asked me what it would take to tame the tigress and I had told her the vision of my perfect man: the perfect gentleman, strong with ideas, gentle in conduct, intelligent, capable of witty conversations, and not overbearing or jealous. I had also told her that I was sure he did not exist.

But then, Seiko and Yume had approached me at a Visual Arts conference last month. With his quick wit, amazing knowledge and impeccable manners, I was instantly drawn to Yume. Add to that the way he looks at meโ€”like I am the only woman in the worldโ€”appreciates me for all the right things and the way his hand lingers in mine a second longer than necessary for a handshake, he had me purring like a kitten ever since.

But we are never alone. Seiko is always there. Both of them are always talking about this breakthrough in 7D technologyโ€”how their company has been looking for an investor to commercialise it. I have invested enough times in visual technologies to know that this one will be an instant success.

Right now, they are both looking at me expectantly for an answer. They know they have won already. Seiko queries, โ€œSo, will you invest in our organisation to commercialise the 7D techonology?โ€

โ€œIโ€™m afraid not,โ€ I say, much to my regret.

Seiko looks crest fallen, but Yume is not even ruffled, โ€œNo? Not even after what you have experienced? It can allow the best kind of travelโ€”no car, no gas, no walking, no insects and no sleeping outdoors in rain. Just switch on a button and you are there, living the moment like a real thing! It can also provide lonely people with a personal companion who would talk to them, empathise with them and convert into whatever they want them to beโ€”parent, best friend, loverโ€ฆ I know you believe in it too.โ€

I know I must take a stand, even if I donโ€™t like it. โ€œYes, and that is because the technology is far too believable. Once you are in, there is no way to tell that it is an illusion and not reality.โ€

โ€œAnd that is a problem?โ€ he asks with my favourite lopsided smile.

I suck in some air and try to remember why I was opposing him, โ€œYes. It is like drugsโ€”something that takes people away from real life. Once they buy it, they will become useless, unable to leave all the dreams that have come true. It can be easily used to gaslight peopleโ€”make them believe in the things and people that donโ€™t exist and the events that never happened. They will never be able to tell the difference since it engages all the senses. It is like selling Schizophrenia.โ€

His face was close, eyes smouldering, โ€œYou can trust us. We will never allow misuse of the technology.โ€

I feel my resolve weakening but I must try, โ€œI trust you and Seiko. But once other people realise what is possible, they are sure to find a way to do itโ€”by buying your people, by spying on your secrets or by simply experimenting. And once the competition begins customising the visuals, not all of them would care whether it is ethical or not. We will not be able to control who sells it and how it is used. It happens all the time with technology. You bring in a new thing and people begin misusing it. But the kind of impact 7D technology can cause on peopleโ€™s psyche would be too great a risk. I canโ€™t have that on my conscience. If your organisation could reduce even just one dimension to ensure it was not so lifelikeโ€ฆโ€ Even as I say it, I know how much I will regret suggesting it.

Yumeโ€™s face falls. He leans forward in his seat. His eyes are pained now, his face still closer, โ€œI thought I could trust you to take the leap of faith. You want it tooโ€”I can see it in your eyes. Our team has worked for years perfecting the technology. It is the sole reason I exist. Take it away from me and I will perish. And I thought you liked having me around?โ€

His eyes are holding mine captive and I can feel his breath on my faceโ€”he smells like mintโ€”heady, sharp and sweet. I can hardly remember there is one more person in the room. Like a mouse trapped in snakeโ€™s gaze, I canโ€™t speak, so I just nod my head.
He takes my hand to his lips and plants a lingering kiss that holds promises for future. He never kissed me before. Still holding my gaze, he smiles, โ€œSee, I knew you would stand by my side. Will you sign the documentation now? We can then celebrate this evening, just you and me?โ€

Just him and me…

I have dreamt of it so many times…

Hypnotised, I nod again. Seiko mails me a contract right away.

All the details of the contract are fleshed out in perfection. I am agreeing to invest an unbelievable amount of money in his organisation. The organisation will request patenting of the technology and buy the state of the art equipment and software licenses to create the 7D illusions at a commercial level. My payback will begin once they start sellingโ€”half the profits. I am not sure if I am really reading the contract as Yume’s fingers draw lazy circles inside the palm of my left hand.

My breathing hitches as I sign the contract digitally with my other hand.

Seiko rises and shakes my hand. He takes off the second ring from his finger and puts it on the desk, โ€œConsider it a gift.โ€ The gesture is so sudden and unbelievable, I take a few seconds to respond and the touch powered illusion that is Yume starts flickering.

I quickly wear the ring. Yume is mine forever.

Consequences be damned!

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Family that sneezes together

If you go looking for the meaning of the word “Joint Family”, you will probably find phrases like, a group of blood-related families that live together ๐Ÿ , eat together ๐Ÿฅ˜ and pray together ๐Ÿ™. But trust me, a joint family is the one that sneezes together ๐Ÿคง.

India has an abundance of joint families and not nearly big enough houses.

Even if the house is big enough, no one is content to stay in their portion. They must all converge in one or the other rooms and share gossip ๐Ÿ—จ๏ธ. The fact that they eat together is not enough. They often have stuff ๐Ÿ”จ strewn ๐Ÿ”ง around ๐Ÿฅป the ๐Ÿ‘• house–with so much of borrowing that just one cellophane tape can do several complete circles of the house, visiting every room on its way, before the actual owner goes and buys another ๐Ÿ’ต, rather than trying to track ๐Ÿพ it down.

And then, there are the kids ๐Ÿ‘ง๐Ÿ‘ฆ. They are everywhere โ›น๏ธ, playing in every room ๐Ÿคธ, strewing their stuff โšฝ in everyone’s ๐ŸŽพ space ๐Ÿฅwith precise division โšพ, so no one feels left out. They run around the floor ๐Ÿคพ without shoes and jump on every bed ๐Ÿ›๏ธ.

At night, there is no space ๐ŸฅŽ big โšฝ enough ๐Ÿ where ๐Ÿ“ you ๐Ÿ€ wouldn’t ๐Ÿˆ step โšพ on a toy ๐Ÿ‰ that doesn’t belong to your own child. So one careless nightly trip from bedroom to bathroom can make you owe all the kids in the house a new toy each.

If you are brave enough to piggyback one, there is an entire line waiting for their turn, regardless of the age and weight.

And when one nose runs…

You can’t keep them away from each other. They will find an excuse to break all the rules you set out about quarantine, go meet their sick cousin and kiss him on the cheek to comfort him. And then you will have your hands full with a whole bunch of kids, all down with fever at the same time. All the while, all the elders will be down with fever too, because who can resist kissing a child who is unwell? Especially if he has walked in every room telling everyone he is unwell and sneezing as a proof.

So, if a joint family is really joint, it is the one that sneezes together.

I would know. I live in just such a family who is sneezing together at the moment. And I wouldn’t trade it for all the gold in the world! ๐Ÿ˜Š