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The Museum: Part 3

Author’s note: This is second installment of a short story from my latest book: The Bracelet and the other short stories. You can find the previous parts here: The Museum: Part 1 and The Museum: Part 2.


When begging for an entry got me nowhere, I decided to change tactics.

I had noticed a small hole in the wall on the backside of the museum on my walks with Cleo around the place. It can serve as a foothold to jump inside the courtyard. There was also an emergency exit of the main building, which was always open. So, I walked around the wall and used the foothold. It was too small, and I could only get a toe in, so I left my shoes behind and jumped in barefoot. The emergency exit was open. With all the staff out, I was free to explore.

The place felt weird and darker, probably because of the lack of the usual staff. And once the adrenaline wore off, I was slightly scared to be alone in the huge, dark place. I could smell incense in the air along with many other smells I could not understand. A different sense of dread clutched my heartโ€”I shouldnโ€™t be here! I should have waited outside along with the guard!

I wished Cleo was here alongside me to fill the silence with his chatter.

As I walked down the darkened stairs to the Egyptian display room, I could feel my feet shaking slightly. With every step, I wondered if I should go back and wait outside. But even though everything in me screamed to run, I couldnโ€™t give up now. Cleo was so close, I could almost smell him, or was it the aroma of an incense stick? The fragrance was stronger closer to the Egyptian display and so was the sense of dread.

*****

I opened the door to the Egyptian display hall just a sliver and peeped in. The room had a pile of large moving boxes packed on one side. The two Egyptian caskets lay open. A fire burned in the middle of the room. On one side of the fire, a man in an ancient robe was reading a book aloud. Several people wearing ancient Egyptian dresses were sitting on one knee with their heads down, listening. Cleo was there too, not hiding like me but out front in the ancient dress. His face was just as desolate as the last time.

My heart constricted at the sight. All I wanted to do was fling the door open and rush to Cleoโ€™s side. As if he knew I was there, he suddenly looked at me and gave a wan smile.

A book closed with a low thump and my eyes moved to the reading man. He was now walking to the other side with a crown in his hands. I shifted a little to see clearly.

Cleoโ€™s friend was sitting on the Egyptian throne in a regal dress. Once the crown was placed on his head, everyone bowed with their noses on the floor. Cleo did too.

Nothing made sense.

The man with the book spoke a few versus again and looked expectantly at the โ€œkingโ€.

He nodded regally.

Suddenly, his face and hands started to shrivel. Horrified, I wanted to tear my eyes off him, but fear held me still. Before my very eyes, the handsome face turned into a mask of death and bandages replaced his royal garb. He went limp. One of the men in the congregation picked him up gingerly and laid him in his casket.

Unable to comprehend, I looked at Cleo for some kind of explanation, but someone had picked him up too and placed him in the casket next to the king.


END

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The Museum: Part 2

Author’s note: This is second installment of a short story from my latest book: The Bracelet and the other short stories. You can find the previous part here: The Museum: Part 1


I knew nothing about him, his job, his life back in Egypt or his family, but I knew it wasnโ€™t just a holiday romance. We had barely touched each-other and yet, I could feel my heart breaking over the news.

That day, the love in his eyes had said everything even if he wouldnโ€™t put it in words. Even as he spoke of the different layers in the society, of commoners, of priests, of nobles, of princes and kings of divine origin and of slaves who worked under them and were buried alongside their master to serve them in afterlife, I saw in his eyes something akin of a desperationโ€”a burning question, as if he was seeking permission to say something.

I had asked him what it was, but he had simply shrugged. I could see he was still holding back.

I couldnโ€™t bear his silence now because we were running out of time. He would leave for Egypt, and I would never see him again. I wondered if I should propose him instead, but so far I had only guessed his intentions. I had no clarity. What if I was wrong and I didnโ€™t mean as much to him as he did to me?

What if he had a wife waiting on the other side of the sea?

He still wouldnโ€™t talk about his family and friends or what he thought of our future together. I suggested a short walk outside the museum but he declined even that little request with an apology that he couldnโ€™t leave the place! Angry, I had walked out that day. He had stood at the gate looking at me with desolate eyes, but he hadnโ€™t stopped me.

*****

It had been a difficult fortnight. I couldnโ€™t eat or drink. Sleep defied me, no matter what I did. I even went on a date to take my mind off the matter. But it felt like cheating even though we had never been togetherโ€”just a few friendly meetings at the museum.

But all I could think of was of Cleoโ€™s fingers wrapped around mine; and how I was about to lose him forever.

*****

The eve of the day of movement arrived with the announcement of the big news on television and newspapers. They had called it an act of international goodwill; an Egyptian king and his treasure being returned to his people.

It would bring a lot of tourism and, in turn, employment to the cities around the tomb where he will be placed back. Cleo will probably play the tour guide there or whatever he did for a living. The thought alleviated the ache in my heart so much that I could scarcely breath.

He was leaving…

Without me…

My manager sent me home that day, stating that being mentally absent at work was dangerous. So, I sat huddled in my bed all dayโ€”not eating, not sleeping, not responding when my roommate asked if I wanted to go out and grab lunch. I just wanted to be left alone, so she complied. But the loneliness pricked more than ever. He didnโ€™t have a phone, but he had my number. He could have called.

He chose not to.

He was leaving…

Without me…

Maybe it is better this way. I wouldnโ€™t be able to afford the tickets, passport and visa to Egypt. God knows whether Cleo has enough money for the two of us. May be thatโ€™s why he…

He was leaving…

Without me…

*****

I am not sure how I reached the museum. I donโ€™t remember deciding where to go. But my feet ached as if I had walked all the way. I only realised I was there when the guard at the main gate stopped me. Apparently, the museum was closed earlier than usual because there were certain Egyptian rites to re-coronate the mummified king before the big movement the next day. The coronation in our country was obviously a marketing strategy to raise the excitement and, in turn, tourism to the tomb in Egypt.

The museum staff has been given the day off and only a select few Egyptians were allowed inside. A dread settled in my gut along with hopeโ€”dread that I wouldnโ€™t be able to meet Cleo. Hope that he must be here. There is no way he would miss such a rare Egyptian event. He must have found a way to get in.

I was completely awake now. I had to get in too, somehow.


Author’s note: To be continued…

If you would rather read it all together in the book, The Bracelet and other short stories is available for free download here: Link

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The Museum: Part 1

Author’s note: This is first installment of a short story from my latest book: The Bracelet and the other short stories.


Not sure why I went inside the museum that day. Was it loneliness?

Boredom?

Morbid curiosity?

Or was it just the hope of seeing Cleo again?

*****

It would be fair to say that he was neck deep in Egypt…or may be deeper still. He was absolutely in love with his birthplace. In fact, the first time I had met him was inside city museumโ€™s underground Egyptian section.

That day, I was bored, had no plans and went alone. I was admiring the gold throne when Cleo had approached me and offered a tour of the section. He hadnโ€™t even introduced his friend, who had simply smiled and left us alone.

He seemed quite well informed on the subject of ancient Egypt and his enthusiasm was contagious. He talked like a thirteen-year-old on a trip to a football match. Soon, I was skipping along his side from display to display. He had stories about each pieceโ€”the pottery and the potters; the carving and the carvers; the two sarcophagus (the elaborately carved ancient Egyptian caskets) and the mummies hidden insideโ€”the king and one of his slaves.

He was intelligent and witty and had a quirky sense of humour. He was chivalrous but not overbearing. He treated me like a queen, and no woman can ignore that kind of attention. When at the end of visiting hours, he had asked me to visit again, I could not help but promise to return the next weekend.

So, for seven weekends, we met at the museum. We laughed and talked. I told him about my life at college, my dorm room and my crazy roommate. He told me about his childhood antics, crocodiles on the Nile, pyramids and Egypt. He was holding back his present life though, as if he wasnโ€™t ready to share it yet. He didnโ€™t tell me what he did for a living and if he had a family back in Egypt.

It worried me a little, but I wasnโ€™t the one to probe.

And we had time.

His interest in me felt genuine though. When we held hands as we walked through the museum discussing different displays, I could feel that he was as reluctant to let go of my hand as I. Sometimes, he would look into my eyes with the look that made me wonder if he was going to get down on one knee and ask me to marry him.

I would have said โ€œYesโ€ without doubt, even if it meant moving to Egypt with him.

But he never asked the question in words, and I didnโ€™t know how to begin that conversation, especially since we were never aloneโ€”he wouldnโ€™t leave the museum. He lived on the campus, or so he said. He wouldnโ€™t come out with me for dinner, lunch or even coffee. He always had something to do, something to show, something to talk about, which was not his present life or our future. He didnโ€™t even have a mobile phone number, so we couldnโ€™t connect unless I visited the museum.

*****

Two weeks back, he told me he was moving to Egypt; and it seems that he had known the fact for a long time. Apparently, a certain part of the Egyptian display at the museumโ€”including the mummies of the king and his slaveโ€”had come from a private collector whose family had acquired it from the black market several centuries ago without the consent of the Egyptian government, as was the norm in those days. But a team of Egyptian researchers had traced them back to the correct tomb a few years back. They had discussed the matter between the two countries and were moving the collection back to where it belonged. Cleo was leaving with it, back to where he belonged.

And I wanted to go with him.


Author’s note: To be continued…

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If you would rather read it all together in the book, The Bracelet and other short stories is available for free download here: Link

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Broken: Part 3

Author’s note: This is third installment of a short story from my latest book: The Bracelet and the other short stories. You can find the other parts here: Broken: Part 1 and Broken: Part 2.


On the morning of the fourth day, I gathered wildflowers that grew within the temple yard. A tiger was manning the boundary. It gave me hope that my โ€˜friendsโ€™ wouldnโ€™t be able to come tomorrow, and I wouldnโ€™t have to go back. I could stay here forever, seeing her every day. I held the flowers lovingly in my arms until she came, afraid to put them down lest theyโ€™d get dirty.

When she came, I all but jumped up. She placed the basket in the same place and looked at me. I meekly held out the flowers. She accepted them quietly with a smile that almost made me swoon. She turned to leave. I couldnโ€™t hold back anymore. I might have to leave soon. How could I go without knowing her name? Or rather, how could I go at all?

โ€œPlease donโ€™t go,โ€ I begged her.

โ€œDo you need anything else from me?โ€ her voice was teasing.

โ€œIโ€ฆI donโ€™t even know your name,โ€ I blushed to the roots of my hair like a schoolboy.

โ€œI thought youโ€™ll never ask. People call me Kyarr,โ€ she replied.

โ€œOh! I thought Kyarr was the deity here.โ€

She kept smiling.

โ€œIโ€ฆMy โ€˜friendsโ€™ are due to return tomorrow. I was wonderingโ€ฆthinking thatโ€ฆIโ€ฆWould youโ€ฆโ€ I couldnโ€™t bring myself to say the words. What if she says no? What if she considers it an insult? I know nothing about her. She could be married. She looks young but people marry early in this part of the world.

Heck, even Iโ€™m married! What was I even thinking?

She waited for a few seconds. Then, probably realised I wasnโ€™t going to finish. So, she simply said, โ€œI know your friends come tomorrow morning. I guess, it is the last time we meet.โ€ She was still smiling.

โ€œWould you like to come with me?โ€ I blurted out, then lost all the courage and looked at my feet.

โ€œI canโ€™t. Iโ€™m needed here. But thank you for asking.โ€

It hurt to see that there was no pain in her eyes. She was smiling as always while my own heart was ripping up in pieces. โ€œWill you at least stay the night? I just want to look at you until I leave,โ€ I knew I was transgressing some social boundary, but I couldnโ€™t remember whatโ€ฆ

โ€œI can but you might not like how I look. Thatโ€™s why I havenโ€™t been staying here for the past three nights.โ€

I could hear the warning in her voice, but I was past caring now. If it was the last time I was looking at her, I didnโ€™t care if a few hair came out of her bun as she slept. Now that I think of it, I canโ€™t remember how she wore her hairโ€”Was it a bun? Pig tails? Or did she leave them loose over her shoulders? Sheโ€™d still be the only one I love.

โ€œI insist.โ€

She shook her head, giving up, and sat on the stone throne on the pedestal. Then she gave me that smile that melted my kneesโ€ฆ

โ€ฆand turned to stoneโ€”a magnificent stone Tigress.

*****

My helpers returned the next day and told me the goat was still very much alive. I told them about Kyarr, but they didnโ€™t believe me. They said Kyarr, the stone Tigress, has always been there on the pedestal. She was the temple deity.

They said the curse was turning me mad like all those before me.

*****

I would like to believe them and forget all about her, but how can I?

Even though I have returned home, my dreams are full of tiger calls, and my every waking moment is spent thinking about her. Somehow, her being a tigress makes no difference to me. Sheโ€™s still the one I love.

Often, I see her walk away from me. I call her. I beg her to stop, but she just gives me a smile that would make me follow her anywhere. And then, she keeps walking until I can walk no more. Once I fall, I crawl behind her until I faint. And when I wake up, I find her gone.

My bleeding feet and knees donโ€™t hurt. My heart bleeds knowing Iโ€™ll never see her again. I tried booking a flight to return to my Kyarr, but my wifeโ€”I canโ€™t recall her name nowโ€”she wonโ€™t let me go. I think sheโ€™s jealous. Could you please make her understand, Doctor? You do believe me, donโ€™t you?

The doctor looks up at me with eyes filled with pity. He stops the recorder and makes some notes in his pad. He signals a male nurse to escort me to my padded cellโ€”my cage from where I canโ€™t escape and walk until my feet hurt and crawl until my knees bleedโ€ฆ


End

Author’s note: You can find the free PDF version of my latest book: The Bracelet and the other short stories here: Link.

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Broken: Part 2

Author’s note: This is second installment of a short story from my latest book: The Bracelet and the other short stories. You can find the other parts here: Broken: Part 1 and Broken: Part 3.


I settled on the platform on the tree, hid behind the leaves with the gun in position and waited. It wasnโ€™t long when the goat started bleating. A tiger walked in. I guess, it wasnโ€™t hungry because it wasnโ€™t stealthy. It just sniffed the goat, the goat bleated, and the tiger looked straight at the place I sat.

Somehow, it knew I was there.

I had a clear shot, but the intensity of its stare made my hands shake. I fired but missed.

Thatโ€™s when all hell broke loose.

All of a sudden, sixteen tigers rushed out of the bushes around me, roaring and tearing at my tree. The tree was rather sturdy and impossible for an animal to climb but, in my bones, I knew it canโ€™t last against so many tigers. I fired several rounds of bullets but, weirdly enough, they hit none of the sixteen.

Soon, I was out of ammunition.

After a few minutesโ€”it felt like an eternityโ€”of scratching away the tree bark, the tigers began to return to the shadows of the forest. But one of them remained stationed beneath the tree. I had a suspicion that heโ€™s waiting for me to get drowsy and fall down. After a couple of hours, as the rush of adrenalin subsided, I started getting sleepy. Meanwhile, crazy as it sounds, another tiger had come in and relieved the first one from its โ€˜dutyโ€™, which means they were working as a team.

It was weird and scary in extreme. Three days from now, one of them would still be here, meaning that my help would never arrive.

I wondered whether the โ€˜helpโ€™ had reached home safely. I wondered when he will return. I had travelled across the world to be here, but now I couldnโ€™t wait to return to my family. I clung to a branch fiercely and prayed to see my wife and daughter one more time.

*****

Dusk arrived and the last rays of light fell on a piece of metal shining on the top of the treesโ€”the pinnacle of the ancient temple of Kyarr. The wise words returned to me: โ€œIf the situation gets out of handโ€ฆโ€ Well, the situation was certainly out of hand. I couldnโ€™t stay the night here. Maybe, the temple could offer a better shelter. I could hide in the inner sanctum and close the doors. Other people had survived there, hadnโ€™t they?

There was no point waiting to die here. I would rather do something.

I couldnโ€™t carry my baggage. It would slow me down. My guns were all useless without the bullets. So, I used them to create a diversion. I dropped my bag down first, threw my heavier gun as far as it would go in my opposite direction, and then my lighter gun ahead of it. In the end, I threw my skinning knife as far as it would go in the trees. The tiger took the bait and ran towards it.

I jumped down and dashed towards the temple. I didnโ€™t hear any tigers behind me, but I didnโ€™t stop to check too.

I reached the temple in one mad dash. It had no boundary so entering was rather easy. I ran inside the prayer hall and turned to close the doors. There were none.

โ€œDonโ€™t worry. They wonโ€™t hurt you here. You arenโ€™t carrying weapons,โ€ a pleasant female voice made me turn around. She was sitting on the stone throne on the pedestal.

โ€œBut I had shot several rounds at them a few hours back.โ€

โ€œBut you canโ€™t anymore.โ€ It wasnโ€™t a question. She smiled dazzling me. โ€œPlease make yourself comfortable until your friends return for you. If you are hungry, you can have these fruits,โ€ she pointed towards a basket at her feet. With those words, she left the room.

*****

I hid there for four nights until help arrived.

The first night, I could neither eat, nor sleep. Occasionally, I heard the tigers roar just outside the periphery of the temple. Not sure what kept them out thoughโ€”the temple had no doors to close.

It wasnโ€™t the fear that kept me up though. It was the womanโ€”I kept thinking about her smile, her face, her grace, her voiceโ€ฆ

*****

The next day stretched before me with nothing to do. My smartphone had stopped working the moment I had entered the deeper forest, as expected. Now the battery was dead as well. I tried missing my wife and daughter, but I couldnโ€™t. All I thought about was โ€˜herโ€™. I craved for her with the intensity of a man dying of thirst in the desert. But no matter how I tried, I could not recall the colour of her clothes. I had been so taken in by her face.

At dusk, she returned with a fruit basket. I think, she was wearing something orange. I canโ€™t be too sure. All I could remember was her face and dazzling smile. She asked me if I was well. I wanted to say that I was dying to see her again. But all I could manage was a nod. She left the basket in the same place and left with the dazzling smile.

I wanted to stop her and ask her name. I wanted to ask her how she knew my language and about my friends; where she lived and why she returned only at dusk and only to deliver the basket; why she never said a prayer in the temple; and where was the deity anyway.

But the words stayed lodged firmly in my throat. All I could manage was to look like a thunderstruck tree.

The next two nights were spent pretty much the same way. I tried sleeping but kept dreaming of her. But as soon as I would lift my hand to touch her face, tiger roars would wake me up. I could hardly remember my wifeโ€™s name. Heck, I couldnโ€™t remember my own name if I didnโ€™t have my ID in my pocket. Both days, mornings were spent waiting for the dusk to arrive so that I could see her again; and evenings thinking of what I could have and should have said to her.

The roars didnโ€™t bother me anymore. I might not even have noticed if the tigers had eaten me.


Author’s note: To be continued…

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Broken: Part 1

Author’s note: This is first installment of a short story from my latest book: The Bracelet and the other short stories. You can find the other parts here: Broken: Part 2 and Broken: Part 3.


I had never hunted in this area before, but I was dying to get a tigerโ€™s head for my collection for years now and an ecoโ€‘tourism website had mentioned this place. It had boasted of a uniquely high tigerโ€‘perโ€‘kilometre ratio as compared to the rest of the world. Tigers are revered here, so, local poachers donโ€™t touch them. Thereโ€™s no law against hunting the endangered species in this country though. Just my luck! So, I got a quick tourist Visa, gathered my hunting gear and flew here.

*****

In a country where tigers are revered, I couldnโ€™t directly ask people where I could find a tiger to kill. So, I went around the long route. After the first day of sightโ€‘seeing with a local tourist guide, I tipped him heavily. Then, I said, โ€œI just wish it was a little more exciting than that!โ€ I talked about my hunting trips. He immediately promised to find someone to help me, which he did within the hour.

The โ€˜helpโ€™ was a small shrewd man who offered his services based on a hefty fee per day. We started smallโ€”hunting foxes, then, gazelle and wild boars. I tipped him generously each day, increasing the amount with the size of the game, nudging him to find something even more exciting. He gradually warmed up to me and suggested bigger catsโ€”serval, cheetah, leopardโ€ฆ

I told him, โ€œIโ€™ve done them all in. The only big cats Iโ€™d be interested in now would be a lion or a tiger.โ€ I knew well that there were no lions here. So, he would show me tigers.

He hesitated. A long pregnant pause had me wondering if I had gone a little too fast and whether I should have waited a few more days. But hunting tigers could take several attempts ranging between several days to weeks. I could not afford to tick off more days from my oneโ€‘month visa.

After what felt like an eternity, he admitted reluctantly, โ€œThereโ€™s a place in the forest where tigers throng. That is the only place where you are sure to find them. Mind you, we never hunt them. There is a curse in that place. Anybody who goes hunting tigers in that place ends up as either dead or raving mad.โ€

Old wivesโ€™ tales, of course! โ€œIโ€™m not afraid.โ€

He looked at me with the resignation of a parent who knew his child was beyond hope. โ€œOkay! But this time, I wonโ€™t stay with you for the hunt. I have a family to provide for, so, I canโ€™t afford to be cursed.โ€

It took immense effort to stop me from rolling my eyes. โ€œSure, but you can show me where it is, right?โ€

He nodded quietly, โ€œYes, but it will cost a lot moreโ€”Iโ€™m risking a curse and a possible death. Iโ€™ll take the money in advance today, so that I can hand it over to my family in case I die.โ€

I knew he was exaggerating to hike up the amount. He wasnโ€™t even going to be on the hunt. But I hadnโ€™t travelled across the world to save pennies. If the website was to be believed, the number of tigers in the area guaranteed a trophy.

*****

The next morning, he came back with supplies for four-five days, a goat, two labourers and tools to create a hunting platform. The labourers looked apprehensively at my gun, muttering in native language. The โ€˜helpโ€™ translated, โ€œThey want you to promise that you wouldnโ€™t fire it until weโ€™ve safely returned from the place. Firing the gun draws the tigers in.โ€

I could not help rolling my eyes this time. โ€œCome on, the sound of gunfire scares animals awayโ€ฆโ€

โ€œIn other places, gunfire might do that, but it is different here. The tigers kill anyone firing a gun in the area. Youโ€™ll see soon enough.โ€

*****

We travelled as far as we could in an old jeep. Then, we walked on a wellโ€‘beaten trail. Apparently, a lot of people walked through that part of the forest without any weapons. So much for risking life!

We left the trail and entered deeper into the forest. After an hour, we stopped near a tall and sturdy tree with high and strong branches that gave me enough cover without obscuring my view. The โ€˜helpโ€™ ensured it was impossible for a tiger to climb it. I knew the last precaution was unnecessary, but he insisted, โ€œYou will thank us later.โ€

While the labourers built the hunting platform and the โ€˜helpโ€™ arranged goatโ€™s fodder, I smoked a cigarette relishing in the tiger calls. The website was right. Too many tigers live in this area. Not sure how though. Tigers are rather territorial. Usually, there is no more than one tiger in several kilometres. But in this place, it sounds as if there is a huge โ€˜prideโ€™ living in close vicinityโ€”only, tigers donโ€™t live in prides. The biggest group could be a mother with one or two cubs. Then, how could it be thatโ€ฆ

By noon, the platform was mounted, and the โ€˜helpโ€™ asked, โ€œAre you sure you want to do it, Sir?โ€

Mentally, I laughed at the superstition. Overtly, I just nodded.

โ€œAlright,โ€ he pointed towards north. โ€œThere is the temple of Kyarr over there. The only survivors from a hunting trip in this area were found hiding there. They were completely mad, mind you, but alive. So, if the situation gets out of hand, try to make a dash for it. Iโ€™ll return in the four days and collect whatever is left of you.โ€

With those parting words, they left.


Author’s note: To be continued…

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Hook, Line, Sinker

After years of being a dog person, I finally fell in love with a cat who broke my heart. (Check out my post My Neighbour: The Queen to find out about this drama.) Deciding that I didn’t want to be treated as an automatic scratch-post, I decided to never get anywhere close to anything feline.

That is why when my brother in law brought in another kitten to foster, I kept my distance and didn’t go anywhere near her for one very long night. The fact that my fingers itched to touch her was warning enough. But the next day, I had to run interference since she wasn’t eating or drinking anything.

I am not a kitten expert but this one is Tiny with a capital T. She is a little bigger than the size of my palm. The guy who gave her to us took her from the litter when she was less than a month. She is a month old now. It felt like the time I held my daughter for the first time. She was so delicate I was afraid to hurt her. One look from her doll-face and I fell. Hard.

Ever since then, I had been trying to keep my distance, all the while telling my brother-in-law to send her back to her mother (can’t happen since they are in another state) and check what to feed her before feeding it to her. Apparently, the guy who had gave her to us was feeding her Buffalo’s milk with chocolate syrup so that she would eat something since she wasn’t. And she can’t digest it. Now, this fostering between her supplier and next forever home feels like a rescue mission. My brother-in-law has consulted people who know kitty stuff and I’m hoping he has finally got it right.

Because if he hasn’t, I might not be able to deal with the loss.

All the while I have been avoiding her, she has been claiming a part of my heart. I have been visiting her on the pretext on accompanying my daughter. Everyone here knows I am bluffing but they have enough sense not to call me out. When I go, I watch her quietly as she plays with her ball. I sometimes push the ball around to draw her out to give her a chance to attack it. That’s the extent of it. But my eyes never leave her.

I think she prefers me that way.

Because yesterday, when I was sitting on the bed watching her eat, she quietly came to me and climbed on my leg into my lap and sat there. Just sat there. And ignored my daughter who actually came to play. My daughter kept on patting her own lap, inviting her to play, twirling her fingers to catch her attention, while Coco sat chewing and licking my fingers in one hand while I stroked her with the other hand.

And I fell in love.

And she isn’t mine. She belongs to her forever family. She will only be here for this month, if that.

Well, what can I say? It is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. Sigh!