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Nazar | Urdu | Poetry

Mere mehboob ki nazaro se bach ke rehna,

Wo janta hai dil kaha chhupa rakha hai.

Uski palko ke uthne aur girne ke beech;

Deewano ne afsana bana rakha hai.

Translation:

Beware of the eyes

of my beloved who

will find your heart

no matter where it hides.

Tales of love are told

mid the moment

she gazes at you

till she drops her eyes.

Context:

Urdu poetry developed in a culture where women did not speak to unrelated men at all. Poets have filled countless pages describing the language of eyes that existed between lovers; how just raising gaze to look at one could incite a love story told and retold around the fire.

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Nadaan | Urdu poetry

Naadan sanam ki masoomiyat se haar jate hain.

Salaam kar ke milte hain, seena chaak kar ke jate hain.


Translated into a Lantern poetry

Naive

Stony heart;

Blessed my life;

And left, ripping me

apart!


Context: This piece points out the irony of “Salam” as greeting between parting lovers (a blessing for a long life).

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The Far Door: Part 2

Author’s note: This is second installment of a short story from my latest book: The Bracelet and other short stories. You can find the other parts here: The Far Door: Part 1, The Far Door: Part 3 and The Far Door: Part 4.

**Wednesday**

**Thursday**

**Friday**

For three days, I have avoided looking at the door. The absence of a metal latch and lock on the far door is putting me on the edge. The wooden latch just didnโ€™t cut it. I keep reminding myself that the rooms are probably just full of old furniture. On weekdays, it is easier; I am out for work all day, returning only to eat and sleep. But on the Friday morning, I hear whispered voices on the other side of the door. Not sure what are they saying, but there are many.

Francโ€™s warning comes to my mind, โ€œJust donโ€™t open the latch to the door.โ€ Does he know about the voices too?

I havenโ€™t made up my mind about selling or sharing the key, but I have to make this place safe while I am here. So, I call a locksmith that evening to fit the new metal latchโ€”a thick copper one to match the interiors, of course. He pulls out the wooden bolts holding the wooden latch and replaces the set with copper latch and bolts. He pushes and pulls at the door several times in the process, which should have opened the door and broken my promise to Franc. But the door doesnโ€™t budge. It seems to be locked from the inside as well. How is that even possible if no one is on the other side?

Pushing aside the thought, I pay the locksmith. And then, I hang a huge copper lock from the new latch. Technically, I havenโ€™t done anything wrong since I havenโ€™t opened the door.

I can finally breathe easy. No one can force their way in now, or so I hope.

**Saturday**

I don my apron and wash the vegetables to prepare breakfast. I am about to sit down to cut them, but I canโ€™t find my knife. The knife I had brought with me isnโ€™t in the copper stand in the kitchen; neither is it in the sink nor dustbin. In fact, all the stainlessโ€‘steel cutlery I had brought with me is missing. I look at the far door accusingly; the metal latch and lock are still in place. I will have to go to market to buy a cutlery set today. How can an entire cutlery set go missing overnight? The thought is unsettling. It is even more difficult to sleep that night.

**Sunday**

Some of the silverware my grandmother bequeathed me is missing. I rummage the placeโ€”the drawers, wardrobes, the space under the sinkโ€ฆ

Something on the floor glints back at me; a silver spoonโ€ฆ

โ€ฆor what is left of it! Someone has bitten off half the head. I can see the toothmark on the bitten edge.

The far door is still locked.

I am hyperventilating now. I run down the stairs and out in the yard. It feels better to be out in the sunlight. A couple of old women stand there, smiling and talking. Deciding some small talk will sooth my nerves, I approach them. One of them looks up and her eyes turn hostile, daring me to speak. I want to turn back and leave but the other lady smiles, โ€œHi! You must be our new neighbour! How are you finding the place?โ€

I want to tell the truth, but politeness takes over, โ€œItโ€™s nice.โ€

โ€œHave you met Franc yet? He said that he will speak to you about buying your portion.โ€

โ€œYes. Iโ€™m still considering the offer.โ€

The hostile lady hisses from between clenched teeth, โ€œYou would have taken the offer and run with it if you knew whatโ€™s good for you. That poor lad has enough on his plate alreadyโ€”His senile grandpa who sleepwalks and two little kids, while his wife dumped them all for another man. He just went to Gorgon for a month to bury his parents, and you locked him out of his house! Now his grandpa is stuck inside a room for the fear of making a spectacle of himself and his children canโ€™t go to school because we are unable to look after his grandpa. Franc canโ€™t cook for them since he has no kitchen, and he canโ€™t return from office until late in the night because he canโ€™t be seen fโ€”,โ€ She bites her lower lip as if she had gone a little too far.

I am too horrified to dwell over that, โ€œAre you implying his family was living here when I moved in; that he was out just for a month? The agent never told me!โ€

Her voice softens a bit, โ€œWell, you wouldnโ€™t have bought the house then, would you? I bet, he must have given you a really low price too.โ€

The other lady pitches in, โ€œFrancโ€™s grandpa is a coโ€‘owner along with Marc. It is Marcโ€™s portion you have bought. They were childhood friends, and their families lived together. Since Marc and Lily had no children, he had intended to bequeath the rest of the house to Franc. But before he could create the will, he died in a car crash along with Francโ€™s parents. While Franc went to Gorgon to bury them all, Lilyโ€™s nephew who had received Marcโ€™s estate asked an agent to sell everything. He never cared enough to come here and look at the place where his uncle and aunt spent their entire lives. And why would he? Lilyโ€™s family never accepted her marriage with Marc. They were ashamed of him being a gโ€”โ€ She too stops midโ€‘sentence, probably realising she is offering me Francโ€™s personal information.

โ€œThatโ€™s horrible! I kicked his entire family out without even knowing it. Can you please ask Franc to come home and meet me this evening?โ€

*****

I can barely wait for Franc, sitting as close to the main door as possible in case I have to run out againโ€ฆ

In case the monster returnsโ€ฆ


Author’s note: To be continued…

Let me know if you wish to read the next part, or you can simply download the free PDF version of the book from here: Books by Shaily

Original photo by Casey Lovegrove on Unsplash (with minor edits based on the story)

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The Far Door: Part 1

Author’s note: This is first installment of a short story from my latest book: The Bracelet and the other short stories. You can find the other parts here: The Far Door: Part 2, The Far Door: Part 3 and The Far Door: Part 4.

I have been itching to get away from the independent house I received in divorce settlement from my abusive exโ€‘husband. To someone else, a house just outside the city with a porch and surrounded by fruit trees would be a dream come true. For me, it is a constant reminder of the scars on my body and soul. A fresh start is all that I am looking for.

When the property agent sent me pictures online, I instantly fell in love with this oneโ€‘bedroom half-a flat in the middle of a busy city. As I walk into the building with my luggage, I feel like a princess. The grand, fiveโ€‘story building is designed like a medieval palace with ornate galleries, cream walls and copper fittings. My flat is on the third storeyโ€”way up from the ground, ensuring my exโ€‘husband canโ€™t get in through the windows. He hasnโ€™t tried anything since I got the restraining orders, but I can never be too sure.

The huge door of the flat opens into a grand main hall with French windows and a sunlit balcony. A wide gallery on the side leads to the bedroom and an attached bathroom on one side and, on the other side, an open kitchen my mother would envy. The fully furnished flat comes with antique wooden furniture and copper utensils, cooker and gas stove that complete the medieval look. It even has copper plates and cutlery. Overall, it reminds me of ancient castles, fairy tales and princesses. All it lacks is a knight in shining armour.

There is another huge door on the far side. It is barred with a wooden latch. According to the agent, there are three more bedrooms and a couple of bathrooms behind that door, but they are not a part of the deal. Giddy with happiness at how cheap the charming flat comes, I donโ€™t give it the thought I should have.

**Tuesday**

It is two days since I moved in, and I am already regretting my decision. I have just returned from office and found an oliveโ€‘skinned hulk in a black blazer waiting at the door. He introduces himself stiffly, โ€œHi! Iโ€™m Franc, the owner of the other half of the flat. Iโ€™d like to buy your portion.โ€ Without waiting for a response, he opens his bag and pulls out several bundles of banknotes.

The amount is huge, enough for me to buy a bigger and even better place but the attitude puts me off. I am done being bullied, โ€œThanks, but Iโ€™ll pass.โ€

His following smile is steely and forced, โ€œAh! In that case, you need to give me a spare key to your main door. I hope you know that it is the only way to reach my portion and I have the right of way.โ€

I curse myself for not seeing it coming, โ€œBut I canโ€™t hand over my house key to a stranger!โ€

โ€œYou should have thought that before you bought the property.โ€

โ€œLook! Letโ€™s be reasonable. I am a single woman. I canโ€™t let you have free access to my house.โ€

โ€œYou have two weeks. Either sell your portion to me or give me the other key. And while you are here, you must never open the latch leading to my property.โ€

โ€œOf course, I wonโ€™t trespass your property. I am not a thief.โ€

He drops a bit of attitude at those words, โ€œI didnโ€™t mean it that way. I justโ€ฆJust donโ€™t open the latch of that door.โ€ With those words, he leaves me. His words and the pleading tone make me curious. He clearly doesnโ€™t think I am a thief, but what does he think would happen if I open the far door? Would I dust off some of the antique cobwebs? Or would some of the mice escape?

Well, there certainly are mice in his portionโ€”tonight, I can hear faint noises coming from the other side of the door. Well, as long as they stay in his portion, they are not my concern. Surely, it canโ€™t be anything else; the rooms have no other door leading outside, and it is the third floor so no one can enter from the windows.

But still, I feel unsettled and unsafe. The smallest sound gives me goosebumps. I am unable to sleep until the wee hours in the morning.


Author’s note: To be continued…

Original photo by Casey Lovegrove on Unsplash (with minor edits based on the story)

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Dream some more

Author’s note: This piece is meant for my daughter and every one else who still dares to have impossible dreams. The world needs your vision.

Fly on dragonback, borrow some wings;

World will tell you to stop these things;

Just ignore. Dream some more.

Castles to see aplenty, make one more round;

Sweeping view will not do, mystery abound.

Pleas to return ignore. Just explore.

Ride waves like a pro on luminous fins;

Join the green mermaid choir out singing;

Heed this bridling world no more.

Pull out priceless visions from your pockets;

Crazy rich–build castles, build rockets;

Build a better world as you snore.

Dream some more.