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The Far Door: Part 2

Author’s note: This is second installment of a short story from my latest book: The Bracelet and other short stories. You can find the other parts here: The Far Door: Part 1, The Far Door: Part 3 and The Far Door: Part 4.

**Wednesday**

**Thursday**

**Friday**

For three days, I have avoided looking at the door. The absence of a metal latch and lock on the far door is putting me on the edge. The wooden latch just didnโ€™t cut it. I keep reminding myself that the rooms are probably just full of old furniture. On weekdays, it is easier; I am out for work all day, returning only to eat and sleep. But on the Friday morning, I hear whispered voices on the other side of the door. Not sure what are they saying, but there are many.

Francโ€™s warning comes to my mind, โ€œJust donโ€™t open the latch to the door.โ€ Does he know about the voices too?

I havenโ€™t made up my mind about selling or sharing the key, but I have to make this place safe while I am here. So, I call a locksmith that evening to fit the new metal latchโ€”a thick copper one to match the interiors, of course. He pulls out the wooden bolts holding the wooden latch and replaces the set with copper latch and bolts. He pushes and pulls at the door several times in the process, which should have opened the door and broken my promise to Franc. But the door doesnโ€™t budge. It seems to be locked from the inside as well. How is that even possible if no one is on the other side?

Pushing aside the thought, I pay the locksmith. And then, I hang a huge copper lock from the new latch. Technically, I havenโ€™t done anything wrong since I havenโ€™t opened the door.

I can finally breathe easy. No one can force their way in now, or so I hope.

**Saturday**

I don my apron and wash the vegetables to prepare breakfast. I am about to sit down to cut them, but I canโ€™t find my knife. The knife I had brought with me isnโ€™t in the copper stand in the kitchen; neither is it in the sink nor dustbin. In fact, all the stainlessโ€‘steel cutlery I had brought with me is missing. I look at the far door accusingly; the metal latch and lock are still in place. I will have to go to market to buy a cutlery set today. How can an entire cutlery set go missing overnight? The thought is unsettling. It is even more difficult to sleep that night.

**Sunday**

Some of the silverware my grandmother bequeathed me is missing. I rummage the placeโ€”the drawers, wardrobes, the space under the sinkโ€ฆ

Something on the floor glints back at me; a silver spoonโ€ฆ

โ€ฆor what is left of it! Someone has bitten off half the head. I can see the toothmark on the bitten edge.

The far door is still locked.

I am hyperventilating now. I run down the stairs and out in the yard. It feels better to be out in the sunlight. A couple of old women stand there, smiling and talking. Deciding some small talk will sooth my nerves, I approach them. One of them looks up and her eyes turn hostile, daring me to speak. I want to turn back and leave but the other lady smiles, โ€œHi! You must be our new neighbour! How are you finding the place?โ€

I want to tell the truth, but politeness takes over, โ€œItโ€™s nice.โ€

โ€œHave you met Franc yet? He said that he will speak to you about buying your portion.โ€

โ€œYes. Iโ€™m still considering the offer.โ€

The hostile lady hisses from between clenched teeth, โ€œYou would have taken the offer and run with it if you knew whatโ€™s good for you. That poor lad has enough on his plate alreadyโ€”His senile grandpa who sleepwalks and two little kids, while his wife dumped them all for another man. He just went to Gorgon for a month to bury his parents, and you locked him out of his house! Now his grandpa is stuck inside a room for the fear of making a spectacle of himself and his children canโ€™t go to school because we are unable to look after his grandpa. Franc canโ€™t cook for them since he has no kitchen, and he canโ€™t return from office until late in the night because he canโ€™t be seen fโ€”,โ€ She bites her lower lip as if she had gone a little too far.

I am too horrified to dwell over that, โ€œAre you implying his family was living here when I moved in; that he was out just for a month? The agent never told me!โ€

Her voice softens a bit, โ€œWell, you wouldnโ€™t have bought the house then, would you? I bet, he must have given you a really low price too.โ€

The other lady pitches in, โ€œFrancโ€™s grandpa is a coโ€‘owner along with Marc. It is Marcโ€™s portion you have bought. They were childhood friends, and their families lived together. Since Marc and Lily had no children, he had intended to bequeath the rest of the house to Franc. But before he could create the will, he died in a car crash along with Francโ€™s parents. While Franc went to Gorgon to bury them all, Lilyโ€™s nephew who had received Marcโ€™s estate asked an agent to sell everything. He never cared enough to come here and look at the place where his uncle and aunt spent their entire lives. And why would he? Lilyโ€™s family never accepted her marriage with Marc. They were ashamed of him being a gโ€”โ€ She too stops midโ€‘sentence, probably realising she is offering me Francโ€™s personal information.

โ€œThatโ€™s horrible! I kicked his entire family out without even knowing it. Can you please ask Franc to come home and meet me this evening?โ€

*****

I can barely wait for Franc, sitting as close to the main door as possible in case I have to run out againโ€ฆ

In case the monster returnsโ€ฆ


Author’s note: To be continued…

Let me know if you wish to read the next part, or you can simply download the free PDF version of the book from here: Books by Shaily

Original photo by Casey Lovegrove on Unsplash (with minor edits based on the story)

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The Far Door: Part 1

Author’s note: This is first installment of a short story from my latest book: The Bracelet and the other short stories. You can find the other parts here: The Far Door: Part 2, The Far Door: Part 3 and The Far Door: Part 4.

I have been itching to get away from the independent house I received in divorce settlement from my abusive exโ€‘husband. To someone else, a house just outside the city with a porch and surrounded by fruit trees would be a dream come true. For me, it is a constant reminder of the scars on my body and soul. A fresh start is all that I am looking for.

When the property agent sent me pictures online, I instantly fell in love with this oneโ€‘bedroom half-a flat in the middle of a busy city. As I walk into the building with my luggage, I feel like a princess. The grand, fiveโ€‘story building is designed like a medieval palace with ornate galleries, cream walls and copper fittings. My flat is on the third storeyโ€”way up from the ground, ensuring my exโ€‘husband canโ€™t get in through the windows. He hasnโ€™t tried anything since I got the restraining orders, but I can never be too sure.

The huge door of the flat opens into a grand main hall with French windows and a sunlit balcony. A wide gallery on the side leads to the bedroom and an attached bathroom on one side and, on the other side, an open kitchen my mother would envy. The fully furnished flat comes with antique wooden furniture and copper utensils, cooker and gas stove that complete the medieval look. It even has copper plates and cutlery. Overall, it reminds me of ancient castles, fairy tales and princesses. All it lacks is a knight in shining armour.

There is another huge door on the far side. It is barred with a wooden latch. According to the agent, there are three more bedrooms and a couple of bathrooms behind that door, but they are not a part of the deal. Giddy with happiness at how cheap the charming flat comes, I donโ€™t give it the thought I should have.

**Tuesday**

It is two days since I moved in, and I am already regretting my decision. I have just returned from office and found an oliveโ€‘skinned hulk in a black blazer waiting at the door. He introduces himself stiffly, โ€œHi! Iโ€™m Franc, the owner of the other half of the flat. Iโ€™d like to buy your portion.โ€ Without waiting for a response, he opens his bag and pulls out several bundles of banknotes.

The amount is huge, enough for me to buy a bigger and even better place but the attitude puts me off. I am done being bullied, โ€œThanks, but Iโ€™ll pass.โ€

His following smile is steely and forced, โ€œAh! In that case, you need to give me a spare key to your main door. I hope you know that it is the only way to reach my portion and I have the right of way.โ€

I curse myself for not seeing it coming, โ€œBut I canโ€™t hand over my house key to a stranger!โ€

โ€œYou should have thought that before you bought the property.โ€

โ€œLook! Letโ€™s be reasonable. I am a single woman. I canโ€™t let you have free access to my house.โ€

โ€œYou have two weeks. Either sell your portion to me or give me the other key. And while you are here, you must never open the latch leading to my property.โ€

โ€œOf course, I wonโ€™t trespass your property. I am not a thief.โ€

He drops a bit of attitude at those words, โ€œI didnโ€™t mean it that way. I justโ€ฆJust donโ€™t open the latch of that door.โ€ With those words, he leaves me. His words and the pleading tone make me curious. He clearly doesnโ€™t think I am a thief, but what does he think would happen if I open the far door? Would I dust off some of the antique cobwebs? Or would some of the mice escape?

Well, there certainly are mice in his portionโ€”tonight, I can hear faint noises coming from the other side of the door. Well, as long as they stay in his portion, they are not my concern. Surely, it canโ€™t be anything else; the rooms have no other door leading outside, and it is the third floor so no one can enter from the windows.

But still, I feel unsettled and unsafe. The smallest sound gives me goosebumps. I am unable to sleep until the wee hours in the morning.


Author’s note: To be continued…

Original photo by Casey Lovegrove on Unsplash (with minor edits based on the story)

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Young and crazy forever

Life sucks all the fun out, right? Wrong. We suck the fun out because we want to act all grown up. I have seen a clear example at my home.

When my daughter started painting at three, her imagination was vivid and paintings slightly eccentric. All her animals had long flowing hair and nearly half wore a tiara. Even though they may not have all the body parts, they had personalities.

A stork in dress

Her imagination used to fuel mine–the way she once questioned how we know for sure that little Johnny threw the cat in the well (Ding Dong Bell) made me question the rhyme itself. We only had Tommy’s word for it. A lot of her eccentric paintings fueled my stories.

But lately, she had been mimicking either You Tube characters or my realistic style of painting, never going out of her comfort zone.

Recently, when we were looking at her older paintings, she laughed at her younger-self for being silly while I had always been so proud. Her younger version was free to imagine; she had fun while painting and assumed she will be appreciated, no matter what. The newer one is conscious of social stigma and tries to blend in. While I love all she creates, she is not having fun anymore–expending too much thought and energy on making it realistic. She wasn’t happy with this dog she had created out of imagination, because “it wasn’t as real as mine”.

So today, I took matters in my hand. She is on a winter break right now and has plenty of time on her hands. I put her to cartooning. I think there is nothing like cartooning to bring the imagination out, especially if you are drawing animals. You will have to give them a character.

I gave her the basics by displaying her favourite Bluey characters and explaining their characteristics (dogs standing straight, rectangular body, over-large eyes, high bushy eyebrows, simplified body parts). I also explained how some of these features are used to give them a theme and others give them a human-like character.

Then I asked her think of a story with three animals and draw their characters in this fashion. She is already done with an elephant and a lion in a circus. She is having so much fun! Once done with the third character, her next task is to fashion them as “Pepe and the Big Wide World” characters (round, no body, stick legs, no hands, one with small triangles for wings, large round eyes, no nose–well, they are all birds). Soon I will get her started on a different style and keep going on for days, until she can create on her own like she did earlier, and not just copy.

The idea is to get her readjusted with the absurd and eccentric. She is laughing her head off and still excited at something new. She is sucking her life back in.

What do you do keep your imagination going when the world around you is trying to suck it out?

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First steps

My daughter started telling stories when she was three.

Most of it was reused, recycled and repurposed from the stories I had told her or what she saw on You Tube (Link to the proof: Plagiarism with Brains: Reuse, Recycle, Repurpose). She would add or changes animals in my animal stories and replaced mango with pumpkin in fairytales.

Yesterday, she wrote her first piece of poetry–on the fly and in 60-seconds flat. I actually had to ask her if she had taken ‘inspiration’ from someone. She claims she hadn’t.

Here is the piece. Before you ask, I have taken Your Highness’s permission.

Touch the sky,

Touch the sun,

Just go on and have fun.

You don’t know how long it will stay,

Or rather it will just go away.


I haven’t correct anything there. I had just asked her why she wanted to write game score on the diary I had given her to write poetry and stories in. So, she just took a pen and jotted these lines on the first page (rather the cardboard) of blank diary.

Now that she has a foot in the door, I can hope. I know, there is no guarantee that she would want to continue at all. But that’s life of a parent.

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The Loop

Did she use this particular song before? It sounds vaguely familiar…

It is so confusing when you have to shoot the video at the perfect angle and in perfect light and add a song to every reel you upload. And make sure you don’t repeat yourself. What if this song was already in one of her reels? She has been posting for good three years now, so it is difficult to remember.

It is midnight. She should probably stop this and go to sleep. But she can’t–she doesn’t have anything to post tomorrow on Insta, and if she doesn’t, her followers will be disappointed.

Or will they be? She hasn’t been getting as much response on her site as she used to–less likes, even lesser comments. Why, when she added her reels of their trip to Goa, her particular video of her close up shot in micro-mini did not get much response–just 23 likes and a couple of comments with oohs and aahs! Nothing on her beauty or amazing body…

Is she getting fat? She must be with all the calories she been intaking…

She looks accusingly at her kale–it hasn’t made much difference in the past couple of months. Her weight has stayed at 47 kg since forever. She looks accusingly at her husband who declined to bring her a weight-reduction formula, calling her crazy for wanting to reduce weight further.

What does he know about social trends? You have to be fit to draw the eyes. And he has a paunch under his night shirt, which is rising and falling as he snores softly.

Loser!

She looks back at her phone. She was tired. It is so much work when you have to hold the camera and make it look like it isn’t you who is making the video; like it is your husband or admirer who can’t stop filming you…

It would be so much easier if her husband agreed to make the videos for her.

Honestly, she doesn’t demand much–just a good location, some good clothes and twenty something pictures to make a reel or, may be, a few short videos. But he is more interested in taking in the sights and enjoying with their child rather than holding the camera for her.

Ugh! She wants to throw the phone at him right now, but, if it cracks, her three-hour work will be wasted. She has filmed herself at the local pool, hair spread out in water perfectly. It took several shots and a couple of hours to get the right shot since her hair was floating in weird directions.

She will post it before risking losing it.

So, what song was it again? Yeah, it sounds vaguely familiar…

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The Face in the Mirror

I touch the bedroom mirror groggily, more out of habit than hope. Suddenly, the mirror lights up green with magic, and I can see him. Across the open door of his bathroom, I see him sitting on a couch, reading a book. Which one is it this timeโ€”The Edge of Physics? Cosmos? I sigh! But then, I return to my senses and start shouting at him to get his attention. Nothing! Quickly, I turn to my right and grab the placard with my phone number that has been sitting on my bedside table for two months now and turn back to face the mirror again.

All I see is myself reflecting back in the mirror. The connection is already broken. Againโ€ฆ

All I want, all I hope for, all I desire in life has shrunk down into that mirror and that man who doesnโ€™t know I exist.

I really shouldnโ€™t have cooked that dumb cake! Why would anyone want to see their soulmate if they would still have to wait for them anyway? It is so painful to see the man destined to marry me one day go on with his life like I donโ€™t exist.

Cooking a dumb cake on Halloween night is an ancient practice. It was also my last attempt to find my soulmate. With all the potential suitors hiding in the plain sight, it is too difficult to find a male witch now a days. Itโ€™s not that we are hiding because people might burn us at stake. Itโ€™s just that magic and witches are obsolete. Nobody needs our magical services when weather apps predict weather, daily horoscope apps tell the future, social media finds people, banks hold all the existing treasures, old recordings help commemorate dead people and fertility clinics are goโ€‘to places for begetting children.

Technology has thrown us out of our conventional jobs. Hence, we have reinvented ourselves. Witches now use their superior intellect to secure higher education and obscene amount of salary. But we have to hide the reason for our abnormal level of talent, lest people accuse us of cheating, like sportspersons on drugs.

But because of all the hiding, our chances of meeting another witch are rather dim. Every single male witch I know is already either engaged or married to a prettier witch, while I, being a plain and nerdy scientist, am still single at the age of thirty-five. My family had set me up on dates with several men they know through family connections, but all of them seemed more interested in women with long legs and miniskirts than a woman with brains and an opinion. After I had run through what felt like all the eligible bachelors known to them, my family members stopped badgering me about my nonโ€‘existent love life.

But it is becoming difficult to attend family dinnersโ€”my brother and cousins bring their spouses and children. Youโ€™d think it would be crowded, but my heart never felt so empty before. All I need, if nothing else, is a hope that there is someone for me in the future.

Knowing this, my bestie and flatmate, Bree, keeps throwing around names of eligible bachelors,

โ€œWhy donโ€™t you come with me to the party? There is this guy called Hans you would love to meet. He is an engineer.โ€

โ€œDid you see the hot guy on the fifth floor? Heโ€™s a chef!โ€

โ€œYou know, Henry, our new neighbour? He was asking about youโ€”saw you in one of my Facetime picsโ€ฆ Should I tell him you live right next door?โ€

My first response to all her suggestions is, โ€œIs he a witch?โ€

I donโ€™t mind marrying a regular guy, but honestly, will a regular guy want to marry a witch? And they will find out soon enoughโ€”we may have shunned magic, but magic hasnโ€™t shunned us. We have magic of nature, and it runs in our veins with our blood, making them green. Closer to our heart, we are too green to ignore. We hide it with turtlenecks and dresses with sleeves. The only person outside my family who knows my secret is Bree because I wear tank tops at night.

Iโ€™m not ashamed of my colouring. But if a guy sees it, he will take flight. My bestie feels people donโ€™t care anymore but I donโ€™t want the issue to come up later, once I am in too deep.

So, rather than taking a 10 percent chance with a nonโ€‘magical person, I resorted to a dumb cake, which was a sure shot in finding a future husband. It is a family tradition that my greatโ€‘grandmother had used to meet my greatโ€‘grandfather for the first time, just like her mother and grandmother before her.

If a nonโ€‘magical woman makes a dumb cake, she dreams about her spouse, but she canโ€™t speak to him. To make the Halloween magic strong enough to make contact at that moment, you require a certain amount of magic yourselfโ€”something that witches possess and practice. It felt like a really dumb idea at first but, with nothing to lose, I decided to take the drastic measure.

Well, it wasnโ€™t really drastic, just desperate…

Whatโ€™s the worst that could happen? Nothing. With no practice in magic whatsoever, there were pretty high chances of me seeing nothing. So, I reminded myself not to put any hopes on a cake even though I was giving it a shot.

On All Hallows eve, when Bree went to the Halloween party in the societyโ€™s club house, I cooked the dumb cake. She wanted me to come to meet Henry, but I lied about a headache. She left looking suspicious as if I was hiding a boyfriend in my closet. I wish!

The basic instruction of making a dumb cake is that I must work in complete silence standing on something no one ever stood on before. Well, I am no baking pro, so I asked Alexa for stepโ€‘byโ€‘step instructions. As it droned in the background, I worked in complete silence while standing on something no one had ever stood onโ€”my brand new, superโ€‘pricey sofa. As I wobbled in the softness, I was scared I would burn holes in the material. I ground the flour, prepared the batter, shaped the cake, pricked my initials on the top and put it inside my microwave oven. Ideally, it should have been a fireplace instead. But, like witches, fireplaces are obsolete too.

Once the cake was ready, I pulled it out of the oven, trying to balance myself on the sofa. As I continued wobbling, it occurred to me that I could have simply bought a new rug to stand on instead. Stupid me! Then, I took a single bite from the cake, tried to chew it (a painful process) and walked backwards to my room, slid the rest of the cake under my bedding and tried to sleep on the now lumpy bed.

After this whole exercise, a regular girl would dream of her future spouse. She wouldnโ€™t be able to communicate with him though. So, she would still have to wait until this certain person would meet her. Being a witch, my situation could be better. In theory, when I would rise from my bed at midnight, touch the mirror closest to me and chant the magic words, I should seen my future spouse who, of course, would be a male witch. Because who else would want to marry a witch? Then, I would leave a message with him. In theory, at least…

In practice, most witches waking at midnight are so confused that they can barely concentrate on the mirror, let alone remember the magic words to create the highly advanced magic for leaving a message for an unknown entity whose whereabouts are also unknown. With no practice in magic, I knew I was doomed from the moment I started.

So, I woke up at midnight (Phone Alarm), and walked to my bedside mirror, touched it and incantated the magic words (Google Notes). For a minute, nothing happened. So, I tried again, and yet again, willing to reach someone, anyone…

I never realised until that moment how much I wanted this whole thing to work; to have a chance at love just once in my life.

Suddenly, the screen lit up with a green light and there he was, standing in front of the mirror, looking dishevelled, like he had just returned from a party. His eyes were wide in surprise, and I think mine must be too. I fidgeted in my old tank top and shorts, knowing they werenโ€™t really appropriate for the first meeting. I should probably have worn something fancier. Also, I should say something so he would know why we were here but before I could recover, the connection broke and the mirror started reflecting me again.

He was gone, taking with him my only chance at love. He probably mistook me for a trick of light, an alcoholโ€‘induced hallucination or a ghost. But I knew I had seen a ghostโ€”one that would haunt me for the rest of my life. After seeing him, knowing he was meant to be mine someday, I would never be able to love another. Because love it wasโ€”at first sight.

He wasnโ€™t exactly handsome, but he had an intelligent and likable faceโ€”someone you could strike a conversation with on the subway and exchange numbers with, just to stay in contact. He was a little chubby and he wasnโ€™t hiding sixโ€‘pack abs under his shirt for sure, but the crowโ€™s feet around his brown eyes showed his love for laughter. There were marks on his nose where his glasses must have rested on his face, and his cheeks and chin had a oneโ€‘day stubble. He was real. And now that I had seen him, I could not unโ€‘see him.

Anxious, I touched the mirror, and it lit up again. But he wasnโ€™t there anymore. I wasnโ€™t sure if my voice will go through, but I gave it a try anyway. โ€œHello! Anyone there? Hellooooo!โ€ But nothing stirred on his side. I tried several times, but with each subsequent try, I felt increasingly more stupidโ€”because every time I said those words, Alexa asked me what I needed, while rephrasing the question in a different way every time.

When I started feeling like an utter moron, I looked in the room, trying to get a clue regarding his whereabouts. He could be anywhere in the world. I realised I was looking inside his bathroom. The door to the next room was open and its lightest yellow wall was eerily like mine. From what I could see through the opening, the wall on the other side was adorned with a huge wooden shelf decorated with cute little things and sections of it were overflowing with books. Beneath it, a couple of comfortable couches sat behind a small coffee table. The room was meant for quite comfort in books and company.

I looked for something that would clue me in regarding his country. The decoration was regular stuff providing no clue. The lighting seemed low and artificial. And he had looked sleepy, so it was probably night where he was too. So, around the same longitude. Good! That left around one billion people to search from!

Running out of ideas, I wrote my phone number on a huge placard in an overly large handwriting and placed it in front of the screen, hoping he would read it when he returns to the mirror. At that moment, the light in the mirror dimmed and started reflecting me again.

After that, I tried many times, but the screen didnโ€™t light up. I had a restless night, leading to a restless day.

The next few days, Bree kept talking about the Halloween party I had missed, bringing up different guys over and over, โ€œYou missed a blast, you know. And there was this very handsome guy who was dressed as a vampire. His canine teeth were so real! By the way, are vampires real?โ€

โ€œYou should have seen Henryโ€™s face when he realised you werenโ€™t coming. He didnโ€™t even dance or drink. In fact, he left before the midnight blast. I really wanted to tell him that he could find you next door!โ€

โ€œThe party anchor was pretty brainy, and he seemed interested in beauty with brains too. Do you want me to set up a โ€˜chance meetingโ€™ with him?โ€

But I was only half listening, my mind still on the face in the mirror.

For the coming weeks, I kept touching the mirror every now and then but only succeeded a few times. Once, he was touching the mirror too, looking lost, and twice, he was just fixing his tie. Once, he had looked into the screen with an intensity that gave me hope that he was looking at me. And during these few seconds of contact, I was surprised and unprepared, and before I could gather my wits and try sharing my contact number, the connection broke.

And then, a couple of times, I saw him sitting on his couch reading something. He read The Universe in a Nutshell with a smile that wanted me to tell him that it was my favourite book too. Looking closely, his shelf also had The Theory of Everything and loads of other books about science and stars…

They say you can judge a man by the book he reads. A man who seeks quiet comfort in stars and science on a Saturday is a match made in heaven for me. I can see us sharing books one day or sitting on those couches discussing them or even just sitting together over coffeeโ€ฆ

The thought of the future comforts me. I just stand there looking at him, willing him to see me, waiting for him to acknowledge that I exist. But I can never make a contact.

When I finally spoke to my mother about it, needing advice for the first time ever since I moved out, I was sure she would be thrilled that I finally found the man I would love for the rest of my life. But all she said was, โ€œDumb cake? Well, you probably saw a neighbour.โ€

โ€œWhat?โ€

โ€œWhen the magic isnโ€™t strong enough and you are desperate to see someone, you end up seeing a neighbour. I once saw Mrs. Briggs flossing her teeth; and on another occasion, Father Mathews washing his hands; and once I even saw somebodyโ€™s cat swatting at her reflection in the mirror.โ€

I hung up feeling crushed. Why would my mother not believe me. I had finally fallen in love, and all my mother had to say is that it is not my soulmate but a clueless neighbour! While I was never a people watcher anyway, I am actively avoiding looking around at my neighbours now, afraid I would see him and know that my mother was right.

Once, Bree cornered me, โ€œHenry was asking about you again. At least let me give him your numberโ€ฆโ€

She has been talking about this guy non-stop for the past few days. I nearly blurt out to go date him herself. But deep down inside, I know I am being unkind and unreasonable because I am itching to go back to the mirror. โ€œIโ€™m not interested.โ€

โ€œLook, he doesnโ€™t care if you are a witch.โ€

โ€œAnd how would you know that?โ€

โ€œI told him because I know it is the only thing holding you back. He said he didnโ€™t care as long as you would have him.โ€ Well, at least she is looking properly ashamed.

โ€œHe will care once he sees me in a V-neck dress. It is not easy to accept the alienness of our colouring.โ€

โ€œIs that the only reason here? You have been acting a little odd latelyโ€”too lost and too quiet. Is there something you are not telling me?โ€

Not sure how much I can tell her, I decide on a halfโ€‘truth, โ€œIโ€™m seeing someone, but it is too early to talk about it.โ€ It is technically true, but my conscience pricks me. It is as much a lie as anything else. But it makes her happy.

โ€œIs he someone from work? When can I meet him? At least show me a picture.โ€

โ€œAs I said, it is too early to talk about it. But once I am ready, I promise youโ€™ll be the first one to know.โ€

In the coming month, I wouldnโ€™t go out except for work. And when I do go out, I am not paying attention. I just itch to go back to my mirror. Mom and Dad even tried a locator spell, but the locater kept coming back to our building confirming my motherโ€™s theory. Or maybe, their magic is not strong enough too. At least that is what I am rooting for…

Noticing my absentโ€‘mindedness, my manager has reminded me a couple of times that I have to up my game at work. But I am too obsessed to concede defeat. My life had come to a standstill the day I fell in love with that man who still doesnโ€™t know I exist.

It is weekend and I am home yet again, touching the mirror at regular intervals. Bree is out, trying to give me space, thinking I have a boyfriend I am chatting with. Suddenly, she sends me a text, โ€œI just had a really weird chat. Help me make sense.โ€ There is a screenshot of the conversation.

Henry: Hey! We need to speak.

Bestie: For the nth time, she is seeing someone!

Henry: I know. Can you just tell her that, sometimes, I see her in the mirror too?

Mom was right! I had seen my nextโ€‘door neighbour! It was all just an accident! He is not my true love or spouse, just a clueless neighbour.

We were not fated to be togetherโ€ฆ

All my hopes and dreams had been for nothingโ€ฆ

My mind is reeling. I had been holding on that last straw so tightly that now I am drowning with it. Someone is squeezing my chest! It is difficult to breatheโ€ฆ

I need airโ€ฆ

I walk dazedly out of the door and down the building corridor. Tears are blinding me. I canโ€™t see the next door open and slam into someoneโ€™s chest.

โ€œHey, are you alright?โ€ A familiar face gazes at me with concern; his expressions quickly turning into recognition and then delight. โ€œItโ€™s you! Bree just told me where to find you!โ€

I am both too glad and too sad to find him. While my skin still tingles where I slammed into him, I know it is just stupid, misdirected magic. โ€œHenry…Uh…You are Henry, right? I need to apologize. I had cooked a Halloween cake, you know, to see my future spouse in the mirrorโ€ฆand something went wrong. We are not fated together,โ€ I finish lamely.

There is a stunned silence at his end while he processes what he heard. When I am sure he would turn around and walk away from my life, he just smiles, โ€œAnd how would you know that until you give us a chance?โ€

His eyes are understanding, but they also hold something close to adoration. Iโ€™m speechless. โ€œAt least, let me take you out on a couple of dates before you reject me?โ€ He smiles and his eyes crinkle the way I love.

He still wants to go out with me, and I have to turn him down, โ€œIโ€™m a witch.โ€

โ€œI know. Saw your green skin in the mirror the first time. It looks cool on you. Can you turn me into a frog?โ€

โ€œWhat? No!โ€ I choke out, horrified that he would think so.

โ€œGood. In that case, are you free for dinner tonight?โ€ He gives me a sunny smile and hope returns to the world.


Author’s note: This story comes from my new short stories collection, The Bracelet and other short stories (available for free on the Free Books page: https://fishinthetrees.home.blog/free-books/)

Picture credits: Photo byย Juliaย onย Unsplash

Posted in Random Thoughts

Exaggeration and me

For many years now, my husband has pointed out my love for drama or theatrics. Not that I act on stage…I just catastrophize every thing, right from my maid being late upto my daughter not putting on weight to her school teachers not knowing fractions properly, everything is a catastrophe requiring proper lamenting.

Exaggeration has always been my friend. My husband feels it is the woman in me.

I disagree!

It is the writer in me!

My love for exaggeration comes from my hyperactive mind looking for stories in everyday life. My lizards have a life and mosquitoes too. Unlike his boring world where these ‘things’ just exist, in my world, they have a life–they go on adventures, fall in love, fight epic wars…and face catastrophe. Because what is a story without a challenge?

People tell me that I always had a way of saying things and telling tales about the regular and the absurd…it is my skewed perspective! And I love it!

Do you have any similar traits?

Posted in My life

Matters of Heart: Act 6

Author’s note: My Matters of Heart series is about Indian dating culture and my failsafe ways of dealing with it. This is the sixth part. To look for the rest, just search for Matters of Heart in the Search box.

India may be the land of many languages but regarding the matters of heart, it is pretty much the same–vague! At least, small town India in my teens was like that. You needed to learn Morse code to be able to receive a signal.

That could be because if a guy didn’t hit the mark with 100% accuracy at the correct time and in the correct place and correct company, he might spend the rest of the month in a hospital ward with both hands and legs, and skull in bandages–if he was lucky!

If he was unlucky, he might land up in jail for eve-teasing, harrassment and obscene behaviour in public, or even end up starting a full-scales riot spread across several Indian states–especially if it was a Hindu-Muslim union he was looking for.

As I had mentioned in one of my earlier posts, until the age of 20, I never got a proposal. But honestly, I probably never recognised an attempt to propose. Many of such incidents were due to the vague language signals, which relied solely on reading body language and breaking code words (such as, “I am going for a movie alone.” means “Do you want to come for a movie with me?”).

Considering that I am rather thick in that department, it took me several years of quiet contemplation to understand the full meaning of a lot of these conversations.

Thankfully, I wasn’t the only one. My friends were equally befuddled. Most being bookish-nerdy-artist variety girls, they all had similar unyielding conversations. Surprisingly enough, I was sometimes able to break the code for them (but never for myself). Unfortunately, my decoding style used to put their hackles up and they would start avoiding the guy making the moves.

So I had a close friend (let’s call her X). Once one of her close friends (let’s call him Y to rhyme with a “guy”) told her that he “liked” me. Now, in those days, “liking” in India was the code word for “kind of crazy about and wish to take on a date”. Note that I had met him only once for 15 minutes in an office setting. When X expressed her surprise, he added, “Yeah, there should be somebody to drive around on my new bike!” And then, when she offered to pass the message to me, he said, “No! No! Promise me you won’t tell her I said that.”

So obviously, X told me. It is the girl’s code to share everything that is expressly forbidden.

Technically, this was the first non-proposal I had received, or I should say the first time a guy had clearly shown any interest in me. It didn’t get me interested. It got me curious. I had to dissect this conversation to see where it came from and where it was going.

Because the three statements together did not make sense: while it is natural to “like” someone and want company on a new bike, you need to tell the concerned person to get that company. Why expressly forbid?

Also if I was a guy, I would never want someone like me just to drive around on a new bike. Men LOVE bikes. They are their equivalent of a lover. (I have a colleague who has the name of his bike tattooed on his arm.) So, if they want a girl for a new bike, that girl will have to be a new-bike equivalent: shiny and polished-to-hilt girl with red glossy lips, eyelashes that are thick enough to be braided, plucked eyebrows, manicured fingers and pedicured feet, and fitted in a dress that shows it all.

A girl who new knew make-up and is a walking ad for “Just Books” wouldn’t fit into the image of the “bike” girl. Besides, I owned a new scooter and would never ask a lift from anyone anyway. So, the statements were not making sense.

Naturally, I wanted to ask Y directly to save me the decoding effort. But X told me that it would look like a breach of confidence to him. And I would move mountains for X. So, I had to solve this mystery on my own, trying to join the dots but always coming back in circles.

What did Y mean by…

Could he seriously consider sharing his new bike with me? I mean, I could take it for a drive…not with him in the back though…

What if he didn’t mean it and was just saying for the sake of conversation…a very dangerous conversation with a potential of public beating?

And why would he bluff to X?

Then inspiration hit–Dil Toh Pagal Hai (One of Shahrukh Khan’s movie–the god of Romance in India)!

Y was testing waters. He was checking X’s reaction to see if she would be jealous, like Anjali in Dil Toh Pagal Hai when she saw her best friend show interest in another girl?

If he was actually meaning to ask her out, he would draw her attention to his intention of getting a girl (and to the fact he had acquired a new bike). Since she was a close friend, it would switch on her jealous-friend track and (considering she wore her heart on her sleeve) it would show on her face.

But the plan backfired because X was truly disinterested. She offered to pass on the message, leaving him scared that I might walk in with my brother and he would have to be admitted in a hospital for broken bones (if he was lucky!).

I offered this explanation to X, telling her that she had a secret admirer who was wondering if he should ask her out. But she was as thick as me, “Naah, if that’s the case, he could have simply asked me.”

Yeah, right!

Posted in Fiction

Mellifluous

Author’s note: Thank you, Beetly Pete and John Melon for the story ideas.

He was mellifluous. Not his voice–I hadn’t heard it yet. I am talking about the person himself.

As usual, I was late and had to run from my office with my backpack on my shoulders to catch the last bus to my town. I preferred Fridays to visit my parents when it was relatively spacious, as compared to Saturdays when, apparently, the entire world was travelling home.

After a lot of running and jostling, I finally managed to get on the bus. I was still trying to catch my breath at the door while searching for an open seat when I saw him…

…and never looked away.

It was the peace on his face that drew my eyes–a peaceful ship in the sea of turbulent waters…

He wasn’t a regular or I would have remembered such a face. His skin was light brown, and the dimples made him look rather ‘pretty’–if a man can be called ‘pretty’ without being offended.

As I slowly walked forward in the aisle, I realised he was in a deep sleep–how he managed to sleep amidst all the honking and sweltering heat was a mystery to me. But the way his chest rose and fell gracefully with each breath left no doubt that his lights were completely out. His hands resting in his lap looked fluid, even though there was no movement. His black hair flew gently with the wind from the open window and he seemed completely oblivious of my scrutiny…

…or my existence. Somehow, the thought bothered me.

I sat down a couple of seats ahead of him. I would have sat next to him, but the seat was taken by another female. She sat looking rather bored, consulting her watch often, as if wishing for the time move faster. She seemed completely unaffected by his presence.

Was it just me, then, who felt the tug towards him? I wanted to offer her my seat, so that I can sit with him–afterall, she didn’t seem to care either way. But it would be very conspicuous, completely irrational and totally unlike me. Why would I want to sit with him? I didn’t even know his name! Also, I wasn’t a big town girl. I was never friends with boys and my dealings with them were strictly on need-to-know basis. Dating was unheard of in my family and going after a boy made me feel like an overachieving fool.

Not that it stopped me.

I tried to think of other things, like my favourite food waiting for me at home; my father waiting at the bus stand (since it would be dark by the time my bus reached there); my mother waiting at the door, worried why I hadn’t turned up yet (even though I always reached at the same time)…

But it didn’t seem to make a difference. I kept looking back at him–intent on making introductions once he woke up.

Finally, the girl got up and got down the bus and I took her place in a flash.

I was blushing now because people had noticed how I had hurried to get to him. A lot of these people have seen me ride this bus for an year now. We had exchanged gossip on the way to our various destinations. Now they watched my walk of shame back to my seat to retrieve my backpack that I had forgotten in my hurry to secure this seat. They looked at me with me interest, some of them raising their eyebrows in obvious questions with knowing smiles.

I was also blushing because, as I sat back, our shoulders were touching. A small-town Indian girl that I was, I never had a boyfriend, and the only other boy I ever touched was my elder brother–to get piggyback rides. Of course, I sit next to other people in the bus and in office. But it never felt like this–like I was stealing a moment. Pathetic!

I didn’t like sitting next to him though. It was difficult to look at him properly now. But I could tell his profile was even more interesting. The crow’s feet around his eyes reminded me of happy times; of hikes and dips in the river; of lemonades and jokes; of shared family tales and good-natured ribbing…

It was still light outside and he slept on. His closed eyes were peaceful amidst the various traffic jams that our bus was stuck in. Even the sunlight falling on his face didn’t seem to bother him. His breathing was even and restful–like soulful music meant only for my ears. It made me drowsy. I wanted to talk to him but I didn’t want to disturb his peace. Surely, we can talk once he woke up…

An old fellow Friday traveler woke me up at my stop. The seat next to me was empty except for a gun wrapper. I felt my stomach drop as collected my backpack.

“He waited for you to wake up for eons. Kept stealing glances but didn’t want to disturb your sleep though. So, when his stop came, he jumped over the back of the next seat.”

Sensing my disappointment, she gestured at the gun wrapper with a smile, “I saw him scribble on it right before he left. I think he left his number for you.”

Posted in Poetry

Mooning

Midnight. At the windowsill,

Moon reminds me.

Sprinkling silver pixie dust,

Lighting up the path

For Words to find me.

Sleep spreads its blanket

On the neighbouring bed.

Enraged Jealousy urges me

To shake awake

The Sleepyhead.

Muse nudges the

Story hiding within.

Spying the pen, she retreats,

Fearful of the ever-

judging Punctuation.

Sleep warns Desperation–

Inching towards her patrons

to seek help.

Sense prevails.

Who wants grumbly audience?

Responsibility cautions

To wait for the first light.

Unacceptable though,

I watch Moon sitting on the windowsill,

Sprinkling moonlight.


Author’s note: I have not learnt writing poetry, but I dabble with it sometimes.

  • I have tried a 1-2, 1-2-3 dancing style here.
  • Personification is meant to build a crowd on an otherwise quiet, lonely night.
  • I have also tried shape-writing to bring a sense of repetition where you return from where you start.

Please let me know which part of it worked and what sucked. :)