Posted in Life and After, Love

The Night Bus

I took the night bus

draped in my wedding sari,

still adorned with the jewels

my parents had scrounged for me

over the years,

breaking their tender hearts

for raising a daughter unworthy.

 

I sought you

and the answer to

why I wasn’t enough for you.

I hope, they wouldn’t

cremate my body

before I reach you.


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Alone

I watch the flock of cranes pass by,

and search with them for a warmer hearth

where welcoming arms may await me.

I think of you–

a life lost to ambition.

The chill of winter creeps up my spine.

No arms would welcome me

anywhere.

I am here to freeze alone

in my own company.

Posted in Life and After, Love

Moonlit

The moon is beneath my feet

as I tread carefully

down the silver road

afraid to dispel the magical calm

that holds me together

and stops me from falling apart

from your thought.

Quietly,

I step on the stars

that fall on the way

to my place of rest,

never feeling the burn

of the amber beneath

my bare feet.

My mind’s numb

and so’s my heart

with the chill

that surrounds me.

Once the water rises

filling my emptiness…

We’ll see…

Posted in Life and After

Black

She was sitting next to where you lie, mother, all black, serious, and still.

I wanted to ask the traitor the same questions you would have–why she wasn’t around while you were still alive; when you needed to snuggle with her; when you cried for her all night?

But then, she had been out pursuing lord-knows-what.

Now, she finds the time to sit next to where you lie, mother, after you closed those beautiful eyes and left to pursue lord-knows-what; all teary-eyed and seeking forgiveness for neglecting you for all those lonely years; bringing fresh flowers; trying to take my place in your lap.

You could hardly blame me for scratching her face. I wish I had taken out her eyes…but they looked so much like your own.


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Posted in Life and After

The Nutcracker

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She wasn’t ready to part with the nutcracker yet. Everything else was sold—the house,  furniture, expensive clothes, and shoes—the reminders of their years together.

But the nutcracker they had bought on their last Christmas together before he went to the war…and came back in a box… ‘He’ would stay and bear witness that she remarried but never moved on.


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