“There amid the blue flowers, fair as the flowers themselves, sat the lady of my dreams. Her eyes, black as midnight, dreamt on as she held the petals close to her heart. Her long hair and shimmery wings ruffled in the wind, thrumming my heart strings.
And, in that moment, I fell in love with the fairy.”
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For too long,
been trying to fit in
a galaxy of stars,
looking like them
a part of the crowd,
never standing out,
even after a lifetime
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What do you think of the woman in this picture?
I see a woman who doesn’t care what you think anyway–someone like me.
Beautiful, isn’t she?
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Of all the pressure I bore being a woman born in India, the pressure of being ‘fair’ has been the weirdest.
In India, fair skin means white skin. I was born a Marwadi Hindu, that translates into skin the color of soil…
The soil used to grow cotton…
My mother, who is not Marwadi, is far ‘fairer’ and spent several years scrubbing me up but I was my father’s daughter through and through.
As a child, I never cared about it. My cousins dabbling with ‘fairness’ creams were always mystery to me. These people were less admired, less loved and least preferred in marriage–second-class citizens. I wondered why? Is it our slave mentality? After 200 years of slavery under white-skinned people, have we started believing that white skin is superior? (No disrespect intended to white-skinned readers)
As a way to show my anger, I shunned all fairness creams and lived on just soap and water…that is, until I was bitten by the love bug.
I married a guy whose family was far ‘fairer’. They were a loving family so they took it upon themselves to make me look ‘beautiful’. Their sincere attempts to hide my color under the layers of make up made me sad. I went along with it though, applying fairness creams and bleaches with no results, using a lot of make up to hide my-‘self’, until one day my husband had had enough. He told me the make-up makes me look dead and I am beautiful without it all.
Now the make up and fairness creams are lying in some landfill while I walk around in my ‘beautiful’ skin inside my happy bubble.
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The expensive Beauty products
Cover my dresser
To transform me into a swan
Jeer at me that
I have always been
an ugly duckling;
That ‘I’ am not enough.
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Looking at the mirror, she wondered what she had done to deserve the fate. People were petrified when they first looked at her, averted their eyes and avoided her the best they could.
Even a monster deserved love; but she would always be alone and that made her angry and murderous…