I touch the bedroom mirror groggily, more out of habit than hope. Suddenly, the mirror lights up green with magic, and I can see him. Across the open door of his bathroom, I see him sitting on a couch, reading a book. Which one is it this timeβThe Edge of Physics? Cosmos? I sigh! But then, I return to my senses and start shouting at him to get his attention. Nothing! Quickly, I turn to my right and grab the placard with my phone number that has been sitting on my bedside table for two months now and turn back to face the mirror again.
All I see is myself reflecting back in the mirror. The connection is already broken. Againβ¦
All I want, all I hope for, all I desire in life has shrunk down into that mirror and that man who doesnβt know I exist.
I really shouldnβt have cooked that dumb cake! Why would anyone want to see their soulmate if they would still have to wait for them anyway? It is so painful to see the man destined to marry me one day go on with his life like I donβt exist.
Cooking a dumb cake on Halloween night is an ancient practice. It was also my last attempt to find my soulmate. With all the potential suitors hiding in the plain sight, it is too difficult to find a male witch now a days. Itβs not that we are hiding because people might burn us at stake. Itβs just that magic and witches are obsolete. Nobody needs our magical services when weather apps predict weather, daily horoscope apps tell the future, social media finds people, banks hold all the existing treasures, old recordings help commemorate dead people and fertility clinics are goβto places for begetting children.
Technology has thrown us out of our conventional jobs. Hence, we have reinvented ourselves. Witches now use their superior intellect to secure higher education and obscene amount of salary. But we have to hide the reason for our abnormal level of talent, lest people accuse us of cheating, like sportspersons on drugs.
But because of all the hiding, our chances of meeting another witch are rather dim. Every single male witch I know is already either engaged or married to a prettier witch, while I, being a plain and nerdy scientist, am still single at the age of thirty-five. My family had set me up on dates with several men they know through family connections, but all of them seemed more interested in women with long legs and miniskirts than a woman with brains and an opinion. After I had run through what felt like all the eligible bachelors known to them, my family members stopped badgering me about my nonβexistent love life.
But it is becoming difficult to attend family dinnersβmy brother and cousins bring their spouses and children. Youβd think it would be crowded, but my heart never felt so empty before. All I need, if nothing else, is a hope that there is someone for me in the future.
Knowing this, my bestie and flatmate, Bree, keeps throwing around names of eligible bachelors,
βWhy donβt you come with me to the party? There is this guy called Hans you would love to meet. He is an engineer.β
βDid you see the hot guy on the fifth floor? Heβs a chef!β
βYou know, Henry, our new neighbour? He was asking about youβsaw you in one of my Facetime picsβ¦ Should I tell him you live right next door?β
My first response to all her suggestions is, βIs he a witch?β
I donβt mind marrying a regular guy, but honestly, will a regular guy want to marry a witch? And they will find out soon enoughβwe may have shunned magic, but magic hasnβt shunned us. We have magic of nature, and it runs in our veins with our blood, making them green. Closer to our heart, we are too green to ignore. We hide it with turtlenecks and dresses with sleeves. The only person outside my family who knows my secret is Bree because I wear tank tops at night.
Iβm not ashamed of my colouring. But if a guy sees it, he will take flight. My bestie feels people donβt care anymore but I donβt want the issue to come up later, once I am in too deep.
So, rather than taking a 10 percent chance with a nonβmagical person, I resorted to a dumb cake, which was a sure shot in finding a future husband. It is a family tradition that my greatβgrandmother had used to meet my greatβgrandfather for the first time, just like her mother and grandmother before her.
If a nonβmagical woman makes a dumb cake, she dreams about her spouse, but she canβt speak to him. To make the Halloween magic strong enough to make contact at that moment, you require a certain amount of magic yourselfβsomething that witches possess and practice. It felt like a really dumb idea at first but, with nothing to lose, I decided to take the drastic measure.
Well, it wasnβt really drastic, just desperate…
Whatβs the worst that could happen? Nothing. With no practice in magic whatsoever, there were pretty high chances of me seeing nothing. So, I reminded myself not to put any hopes on a cake even though I was giving it a shot.
On All Hallows eve, when Bree went to the Halloween party in the societyβs club house, I cooked the dumb cake. She wanted me to come to meet Henry, but I lied about a headache. She left looking suspicious as if I was hiding a boyfriend in my closet. I wish!
The basic instruction of making a dumb cake is that I must work in complete silence standing on something no one ever stood on before. Well, I am no baking pro, so I asked Alexa for stepβbyβstep instructions. As it droned in the background, I worked in complete silence while standing on something no one had ever stood onβmy brand new, superβpricey sofa. As I wobbled in the softness, I was scared I would burn holes in the material. I ground the flour, prepared the batter, shaped the cake, pricked my initials on the top and put it inside my microwave oven. Ideally, it should have been a fireplace instead. But, like witches, fireplaces are obsolete too.
Once the cake was ready, I pulled it out of the oven, trying to balance myself on the sofa. As I continued wobbling, it occurred to me that I could have simply bought a new rug to stand on instead. Stupid me! Then, I took a single bite from the cake, tried to chew it (a painful process) and walked backwards to my room, slid the rest of the cake under my bedding and tried to sleep on the now lumpy bed.
After this whole exercise, a regular girl would dream of her future spouse. She wouldnβt be able to communicate with him though. So, she would still have to wait until this certain person would meet her. Being a witch, my situation could be better. In theory, when I would rise from my bed at midnight, touch the mirror closest to me and chant the magic words, I should seen my future spouse who, of course, would be a male witch. Because who else would want to marry a witch? Then, I would leave a message with him. In theory, at least…
In practice, most witches waking at midnight are so confused that they can barely concentrate on the mirror, let alone remember the magic words to create the highly advanced magic for leaving a message for an unknown entity whose whereabouts are also unknown. With no practice in magic, I knew I was doomed from the moment I started.
So, I woke up at midnight (Phone Alarm), and walked to my bedside mirror, touched it and incantated the magic words (Google Notes). For a minute, nothing happened. So, I tried again, and yet again, willing to reach someone, anyone…
I never realised until that moment how much I wanted this whole thing to work; to have a chance at love just once in my life.
Suddenly, the screen lit up with a green light and there he was, standing in front of the mirror, looking dishevelled, like he had just returned from a party. His eyes were wide in surprise, and I think mine must be too. I fidgeted in my old tank top and shorts, knowing they werenβt really appropriate for the first meeting. I should probably have worn something fancier. Also, I should say something so he would know why we were here but before I could recover, the connection broke and the mirror started reflecting me again.
He was gone, taking with him my only chance at love. He probably mistook me for a trick of light, an alcoholβinduced hallucination or a ghost. But I knew I had seen a ghostβone that would haunt me for the rest of my life. After seeing him, knowing he was meant to be mine someday, I would never be able to love another. Because love it wasβat first sight.
He wasnβt exactly handsome, but he had an intelligent and likable faceβsomeone you could strike a conversation with on the subway and exchange numbers with, just to stay in contact. He was a little chubby and he wasnβt hiding sixβpack abs under his shirt for sure, but the crowβs feet around his brown eyes showed his love for laughter. There were marks on his nose where his glasses must have rested on his face, and his cheeks and chin had a oneβday stubble. He was real. And now that I had seen him, I could not unβsee him.
Anxious, I touched the mirror, and it lit up again. But he wasnβt there anymore. I wasnβt sure if my voice will go through, but I gave it a try anyway. βHello! Anyone there? Hellooooo!β But nothing stirred on his side. I tried several times, but with each subsequent try, I felt increasingly more stupidβbecause every time I said those words, Alexa asked me what I needed, while rephrasing the question in a different way every time.
When I started feeling like an utter moron, I looked in the room, trying to get a clue regarding his whereabouts. He could be anywhere in the world. I realised I was looking inside his bathroom. The door to the next room was open and its lightest yellow wall was eerily like mine. From what I could see through the opening, the wall on the other side was adorned with a huge wooden shelf decorated with cute little things and sections of it were overflowing with books. Beneath it, a couple of comfortable couches sat behind a small coffee table. The room was meant for quite comfort in books and company.
I looked for something that would clue me in regarding his country. The decoration was regular stuff providing no clue. The lighting seemed low and artificial. And he had looked sleepy, so it was probably night where he was too. So, around the same longitude. Good! That left around one billion people to search from!
Running out of ideas, I wrote my phone number on a huge placard in an overly large handwriting and placed it in front of the screen, hoping he would read it when he returns to the mirror. At that moment, the light in the mirror dimmed and started reflecting me again.
After that, I tried many times, but the screen didnβt light up. I had a restless night, leading to a restless day.
The next few days, Bree kept talking about the Halloween party I had missed, bringing up different guys over and over, βYou missed a blast, you know. And there was this very handsome guy who was dressed as a vampire. His canine teeth were so real! By the way, are vampires real?β
βYou should have seen Henryβs face when he realised you werenβt coming. He didnβt even dance or drink. In fact, he left before the midnight blast. I really wanted to tell him that he could find you next door!β
βThe party anchor was pretty brainy, and he seemed interested in beauty with brains too. Do you want me to set up a βchance meetingβ with him?β
But I was only half listening, my mind still on the face in the mirror.
For the coming weeks, I kept touching the mirror every now and then but only succeeded a few times. Once, he was touching the mirror too, looking lost, and twice, he was just fixing his tie. Once, he had looked into the screen with an intensity that gave me hope that he was looking at me. And during these few seconds of contact, I was surprised and unprepared, and before I could gather my wits and try sharing my contact number, the connection broke.
And then, a couple of times, I saw him sitting on his couch reading something. He read The Universe in a Nutshell with a smile that wanted me to tell him that it was my favourite book too. Looking closely, his shelf also had The Theory of Everything and loads of other books about science and stars…
They say you can judge a man by the book he reads. A man who seeks quiet comfort in stars and science on a Saturday is a match made in heaven for me. I can see us sharing books one day or sitting on those couches discussing them or even just sitting together over coffeeβ¦
The thought of the future comforts me. I just stand there looking at him, willing him to see me, waiting for him to acknowledge that I exist. But I can never make a contact.
When I finally spoke to my mother about it, needing advice for the first time ever since I moved out, I was sure she would be thrilled that I finally found the man I would love for the rest of my life. But all she said was, βDumb cake? Well, you probably saw a neighbour.β
βWhat?β
βWhen the magic isnβt strong enough and you are desperate to see someone, you end up seeing a neighbour. I once saw Mrs. Briggs flossing her teeth; and on another occasion, Father Mathews washing his hands; and once I even saw somebodyβs cat swatting at her reflection in the mirror.β
I hung up feeling crushed. Why would my mother not believe me. I had finally fallen in love, and all my mother had to say is that it is not my soulmate but a clueless neighbour! While I was never a people watcher anyway, I am actively avoiding looking around at my neighbours now, afraid I would see him and know that my mother was right.
Once, Bree cornered me, βHenry was asking about you again. At least let me give him your numberβ¦β
She has been talking about this guy non-stop for the past few days. I nearly blurt out to go date him herself. But deep down inside, I know I am being unkind and unreasonable because I am itching to go back to the mirror. βIβm not interested.β
βLook, he doesnβt care if you are a witch.β
βAnd how would you know that?β
βI told him because I know it is the only thing holding you back. He said he didnβt care as long as you would have him.β Well, at least she is looking properly ashamed.
βHe will care once he sees me in a V-neck dress. It is not easy to accept the alienness of our colouring.β
βIs that the only reason here? You have been acting a little odd latelyβtoo lost and too quiet. Is there something you are not telling me?β
Not sure how much I can tell her, I decide on a halfβtruth, βIβm seeing someone, but it is too early to talk about it.β It is technically true, but my conscience pricks me. It is as much a lie as anything else. But it makes her happy.
βIs he someone from work? When can I meet him? At least show me a picture.β
βAs I said, it is too early to talk about it. But once I am ready, I promise youβll be the first one to know.β
In the coming month, I wouldnβt go out except for work. And when I do go out, I am not paying attention. I just itch to go back to my mirror. Mom and Dad even tried a locator spell, but the locater kept coming back to our building confirming my motherβs theory. Or maybe, their magic is not strong enough too. At least that is what I am rooting for…
Noticing my absentβmindedness, my manager has reminded me a couple of times that I have to up my game at work. But I am too obsessed to concede defeat. My life had come to a standstill the day I fell in love with that man who still doesnβt know I exist.
It is weekend and I am home yet again, touching the mirror at regular intervals. Bree is out, trying to give me space, thinking I have a boyfriend I am chatting with. Suddenly, she sends me a text, βI just had a really weird chat. Help me make sense.β There is a screenshot of the conversation.
Henry: Hey! We need to speak.
Bestie: For the nth time, she is seeing someone!
Henry: I know. Can you just tell her that, sometimes, I see her in the mirror too?
Mom was right! I had seen my nextβdoor neighbour! It was all just an accident! He is not my true love or spouse, just a clueless neighbour.
We were not fated to be togetherβ¦
All my hopes and dreams had been for nothingβ¦
My mind is reeling. I had been holding on that last straw so tightly that now I am drowning with it. Someone is squeezing my chest! It is difficult to breatheβ¦
I need airβ¦
I walk dazedly out of the door and down the building corridor. Tears are blinding me. I canβt see the next door open and slam into someoneβs chest.
βHey, are you alright?β A familiar face gazes at me with concern; his expressions quickly turning into recognition and then delight. βItβs you! Bree just told me where to find you!β
I am both too glad and too sad to find him. While my skin still tingles where I slammed into him, I know it is just stupid, misdirected magic. βHenry…Uh…You are Henry, right? I need to apologize. I had cooked a Halloween cake, you know, to see my future spouse in the mirrorβ¦and something went wrong. We are not fated together,β I finish lamely.
There is a stunned silence at his end while he processes what he heard. When I am sure he would turn around and walk away from my life, he just smiles, βAnd how would you know that until you give us a chance?β
His eyes are understanding, but they also hold something close to adoration. Iβm speechless. βAt least, let me take you out on a couple of dates before you reject me?β He smiles and his eyes crinkle the way I love.
He still wants to go out with me, and I have to turn him down, βIβm a witch.β
βI know. Saw your green skin in the mirror the first time. It looks cool on you. Can you turn me into a frog?β
βWhat? No!β I choke out, horrified that he would think so.
βGood. In that case, are you free for dinner tonight?β He gives me a sunny smile and hope returns to the world.
Author’s note: This story comes from my new short stories collection, The Bracelet and other short stories (available for free on the Free Books page: https://fishinthetrees.home.blog/free-books/)
Picture credits: Photo byΒ JuliaΒ onΒ Unsplash